Flat lookout

Bloody are those who surround their lives and cover their thick skins with neverending church politics. Pleeeeease put a FULL STOP to this old issue already, I beg of you.

Sigh!

Anyway. Dessert this evening was so yummy-looking I couldn't resist taking a picture of it.

Ice cream with choc syrup, choc mousse, smarties, & jelly!

This afternoon, Mr and Mrs Canai, Rebec, May, Janice and I went to have a look at potential flats to live in next year. The one we saw this afternoon was at Great King Street, which is about 10 min walking distance to uni, not bad. Pretty strategic too, considering Asian Groceries, KFC, McD's, and VideoEzy just a few blocks away. Price wasn't that bad either- $94 per week. Maybe I was being TOO fussy, but I was kinda disappointed that the landlord wouldn't let pets into the flats. I really wanted to get a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel. *frowns*

"The Loft"

The wardrobe is TOO tiny! Not enough to fit all my clothes =P

Not a bad view (& balcony); from one of the flats

More flat hunting business tomorrow. =)

We learn, albeit painfully

I guess the question isn't "How stupid was I?" or"What an idiot I am for believing him?", rather it should be this statement "God, please help him. Have mercy on his soul."

What he did was really bad and unforgivable. But it wouldn't make any difference even if I talk bad things behind him or curse him. The reality remains: He will never change. He will continue to lie, to use his charm to trick girls for his own pleasure. In some ways he reminds me so much of Ryan Phillipe's character in "Cruel Intentions", Sebastian, that it scares me. I was once that victim of his, eating from the palm of his hand, and trusting every single word he said. Even when the whole world was practically screaming at me "Go away! He's dangerous!"

Maybe all I wanted was to prove them wrong, to be able to say "See, what have I told you?" But I was so wrong. I turned out being the complete fool, disregarding my peers and parents, and even God. I was hoping to be winner out of this battle I could clearly see the devil was winning. I'm so sorry, Lord.

I wish I could unwind the past, forget about what had happened. Go back to that stage in my life where the only thing worth worrying about was studies and innocent crushes on cute guys. But no matter how hard I try, the harsh truth knocks on the door to my heart, reminding me of how I gave in so easily. Too easily. Yes, I am too gullible for my own sake, and I hope that the other girls will know his true colours. But who am I to tell them that this seemingly perfect guy promises them the world only to take what he wants away from them? I wish I could warn them to stay away before it's too late, before they regret ever listening to his sweet talks, before they cry late at night after finding out the truth, before they experience what I have experienced.

Though it's all out of my control, I'm glad that it's never out of God's control. Through all the heartache and betrayal I had felt for these past few months, I thank God everyday for giving me a reason to believe in His unfailing love and His grand plans He has for each for us. I will not take this as a punishment or a setback, but as a bitter lesson learnt, as another bump on the road of this journey I have embarked on.

For those women out there who've gone through a similar experience before, this song is for you. My heart goes out to you.

None but Jesus- Brooke Fraser/Hillsong United

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live
to bring Him praise

In the chaos
In confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord forevermore

Merry mid winter Christmas!

Freezing cold Monday mornings. It's 9am, I just came back from MANV lecture, and I can't believe that it's minus 2 degrees out there. Brrrrr.

Playing the keyboard for church for the very first time here in NZ yesterday wasn't as scary as I thought. *grins* Thank God for that. Correction about what I wrote about J week the previous previous blog. J weeks begins THIS week!

Studholme Hall College had its Mid Winter Christmas dinner last night. We were supposed to dress up semi-formally, but some Kiwis didn't put much effort, while some guys actually wore suits. hehe. Decorations were nice and simple, with golden stars and Christmas lights illuminating the dining hall, too bad the Christmas trees lack ornaments. Oh well, it isn't really a Christmas celebration mah. Miss Nichola served us turkey, ham, veges, some desserts and a funky tasting wine. I thought it was red wine, took a sip and went "Ewwwww... that's some weird tasting wine". Sarah later explained it was a spiced wine often taken during Christmas events. Who actually drinks cinnamon-added wine? Gross.

Arana vs Studholme dress up party fell on Saturday night. Too lazy to go check out other people's cool outfits, but Janice and May actually went there, took a few pictures and even got an *ahem ahem* confession from Mr Brown! Hmm if I remembered correctly, it went something like: a drunk/wasted Mr Brown saying to the camera "..the one with the red glasses is HOT!" MUAHAHAHA. Had the laugh of my life when I was shown the clip. Either he was so drunk he didn't know what he was talking about or the alcohol made him confess an inner secret. Anyway, congrats also to him and Miss TL for grabbing the naughtiest-boy-n-girl award last night; they received a jandal on a stick (!!!) from our own personal Santa Ziggy. Miss TL won the award for her very raunchy (half naked?) dance on the floor at Refuel. Must have been some special kind of dance. Moral of the story: Alcohol is hazardous. Stay away!

So drunk Sam and Sam the Sailor.

By the way, happy 18th Birthday to Rhi!

Enough ranting for today. I'm giving in to the temptation of crawling into my cozy, warm bed.

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Just random thingies.

Music Related

• Most uplifting song: Always look on the bright side of life- Monty Python
• 2nd most uplifting song: Every Moment- Joy Williams
• Most depressing song: Til I get over you- Michelle Branch
• 2nd most depressing song: The Blower's Daughter- Damien Rice
• My current most played track: Take it all- Hillsong United
• My 2nd current most played track: None but Jesus- Brooke Fraser
• Most overplayed track: As lovers go- Dashboard Confessional
• 2nd most overplayed track: Other side of the world- KT Tunstall

Mood related

• Reading: Picture Perfect- Jodi Picoult
• Memorising: Biochemistry- Boring lecturers
• Lusting: Brand new surround sound speakers
• Craving: An Aussie trip (Gold coast and Hillsong conference 07)
• Stressing: MANV case study. 15 bloody % due early August
• Praying: That I won't eff up keyboards at church tomorrow
• Laughing about: Jennifer Hawkin's "wardrobe malfunction"
  

Tweety related

• Watched: Fun with Dick and Jane
• Refused to watch: Exorcism of Emily Rose
• Weight: Over the limit
• Infected with: (BLE) Boredness lame encephalopathy
• Tagline at the moment: "Yea wor..."
• Thinks: Pleeeease let winter be gone!

Shine brightly, overcome winter

It's now officially mid winter. Which translates into freaking cold, rainy, extremely windy, and dark mornings. Which also means it takes more effort to get up of bed at 6.30am on a Monday morning for an 8am lecture.

Sigh.

The lecturers say, "It's tough, but that's the real world out there. Take it as a training, discipine yourself."

I like to look at it as a bumpy ride along the journey, with spring just waiting behind the clouds. And when spring eventually comes, we can finally put all those cold winter days behind. =) And of course, be grateful for it as it taught us to endure those rough times and more importantly, to appreciate what we already have.

On a different note, I decided to pamper myself just a little by buying both "United we stand" album by Hillsong United and "Mighty to save" by Hillsong. God was so gracious that I got a $10 disount for the 2nd cd. =D My favourite song at the moment is "Take it all" written and led by the ever so cute Marty Sampson.


He's now on top of the who-I-want-to-meet list. So what if he always closes his eyes when he's singing? The cuteness remains.