SFEC youth: i luv u guys!!! *hugs*

blast. headache now. i have absolutely NO idea how to do my SNZ assignment due next Monday. arghhhh. stupid subject. dun even wanna think about that now.

anyway. i turned down e chance to go cinema watch Batman Begins with sizone youth. the reason? truth is, i just dun feel like hanging around them much. they're rili nice n funny ppl, but joining a new gang who u're not familiar with n pretend that u've known them for years just doesn't work that way. sigh. how i miss sfec youth n hanging out with them. so i'll watch War of the Worlds with someone else instead, even if it means asking Yang to go with me. *squirms*

well. there is always a brighter side to things. my tutorial this afternoon was cancelled. good old Colin. yay! haha. n it's friday tomorrow...which means yet another week ahead. it's funny how i realise now that i actually prefer weekdays more than weekends now. hmm. maybe it's coz i have more assignments during weekends n have to face e sizone youth... i dunno. sigh. Lord please help me get more comfortable being with them n not miss sfec youth too much!

being NEW is tough!

ah. saturdays. got up around 10, still groggy and feeling cold. esther invited me to hang out with e sizone youth for a movie. so went to westfield, had Cambodian lunch, then watched "Hitch" at Ken's place. nice movie! didn't know that it's a romantic comedy. haha. a lil awkward though, since i'm e NEW girl n everyone's alwez asking if i'm cold, or simply asking me to help myself to e popcorn. neways, really appreciate their hospitality n craziness. haha.

rugby match will start in 10 minutes while i'm typing this. just received 1 huge news: Prince WILLIAM is in town! oh gosh. i think he had his engagement at Queenstown n joined in here for e rugby. yeah together with about 20000 Englishmen. haha. everywhere i go on e street can see people in either red or black clothes, kinda amusing in a way. still trying to imagine the prince cheering for e Lions in e cold (gonna be minus 3 degrees with e wind tonite). maybe he has 1 of those portable heaters. oh better, his fiancee can be his natural heater. hehe

anyway feeling rili rili tired. still hoping to a get a good camera soon. some people said it might snow soon. but prob is, nobody knows HOW soon. funny how i use to think all ang-mo countries have snow everytime. chch have snow rarely, n it isn't deep all the time, too. e rain washes away snow pretty fast too, according to nicole. hmph. snow skiing is still on my things-to-do-during-e-holidays list, so pray that it will come true for me. hehe. oh yeah jia you All Blacks!

here comes e weekend

i lurve fridays. haha. class ends at 4, and weekends r alwez e best time of the week (apart from thursday when there's no test!).

anyway christchurch is gonna be really busy this weekend. everyone's excited n u can almost feel e buzz anywhere. it's e BIG rugby match between All Blacks n e Lions tomoro nite. haha. i'm not dat into rugby (prefer soccer lots), but do know dat e Barmy Army (correct spelling?) is coming to town. yeah not santa claus. btw, they're Lions supporters. chch will be divided then: AB supporters in black, Lions supporters in red. haha. shud be quite interesting to see e crowd tomoro. might even catch e game if there's time after home group.

got e bluez syndrome this morning. haha. just wasn't feeling hyper at all n while i was reading my book (really good book btw), in comes Yang with his big n annoying mouth. he's super active today, god knows why. damn i was so "lucky" when teacher assigned him to be my partner to present an article in class. there i was, trying my best to understand e passage, and also holding back my hand so dat i won't slap him. he is an intelligent guy, but sheesh keeps asking lotsa rubbish questions. even bio teacher got fed up with him, i think. ok. english class over, quickly get away from him. mana tau, i'm stuck wif dat idiotic guy in chem lab for 2 whole hours! gosh. he keeps looking at my lab report n does wat he's best at: bugging me. chem teacher (graham) said i shud charge him 5 dollars for each time he bothers me. wao i'd be filthy rich by then.

oh yeah, was browsing frenster just now n saw SOMETHING. does Kelly have a bf oredi? omg how could i not know dat??? is it dat adrian guy??? n wat's up with Mickey and Minnie???? and i thought pinnochio, merman, n dwarf is horrible enuf. ahhh e disney world continues to dominate. i rest my case.

my sweetest memory

wao. juz looking at stef's blog reminds me of NS again. i really dun care how other people think that i'm always repeating the same thing about how fun NS has been. i dun care them saying NS is tough or boring.

coz all i know is it has been the greatest experience of my whole life. well, my 18 years of life. it's what i've always wanted. without it, i don't know how i'd live my life today. it has made me a person i am today.

there, i learnt the meaning of determination, dicipline, patience, friendship, trust, and so much more. i learnt how to laugh out loud without a care in the world. i learnt how to cry without shame and also to comfort others. i learnt that friendship outlasts time. how ironic is this: i felt closer to my frens there whom i've known for 3 months much more better than my frens back home whom i've known since 10 years ago.

i've learnt to treasure what i have right now. even the smallest things that i've never even noticed. or the person i dislike now. i now know that all these is not an accident. all the people i've met has a purpose for being in my life.

there, we prayed together for a fren who had hysteria. there, we comforted a few frens who took extra pills. there, we did the very best for our team. there, we cherish every second of being together as we know we might NEVER cross paths again.

words just cannot express how much i've learnt and gained during the short period of 3 months. i wish that i can go thru it again every single day, but it's impossible. i just thank God again and again for making me this lucky. thank You so much!!! =)

this is the 'popular' song sang there. reminding us of those 3 AMAZING months...

Mungkin Nanti - Peterpan

Saatnya ku berkata
Mungkin yang terakir kalinya
Segala lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pinta jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati
Seperti hari kelmarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Berundang di mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pinta jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati
Seperti hari kelmarin
Saat semua di sini

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untuk mu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

do something that u've always wanted to do-TODAY

I bought a book. haha. It's just something that I've wanted to do for a long time, and now seems like the perfect moment. Students get 10% discount also le. Not bad. haha. i decide to buy a book every month while trying not to finish e current book, "My Sister's Keeper" too fast. It's just tooo interesting to put down.

Anyway, still wondering if there's enough time for hols next year to go back to Kch. actually e hols is less than 3 weeks... n enrolment starts on 15 feb... but esther's coming back here AFTER e enrolment thingy, n obviously she's looking for a partner during e 10 hour flight. haha. but still hafta consider longer. hmm

Here's something to think about. Like a butterfly

It dawns on me more and more how trivial and short our lifespan is.
It is like smoke; like a butterfly—it passes so quickly, flying away.
Nobody, no one can bring back wasted years.
One wishes that one would have always lived with eternity in mind.

just learn how to treasure life and never take things for granted. even e simplest things.

e symphony of life

another great weekend ending soon. sigh. then back to the boring uni classes. haha.

anyway. great church service, as always. i just love the band so much...Adeline played the keyboards today. How i wish that i can have the opportunity to play for the church 1 day...(if i can pass e auditions!)

oh my goodness Adeline's going to e Hillsong conference in Sydney!!! ahhh!!! a whole of e youths from e church is going there this july after their finals! shucks man. why can't i go?! yeah i have uni ma... sigh so dissapointed. nvm next year i'll surely be there! haha.

actually there's another national youth conference here in Chch soon (july 4th i think), called "Influence". hehe. too bad i can't attend e whole thing due to uni class too, but will try to make it at nite. e tshirt's cute oso! haha

i'm still not used to finishing big servings of food here! so paiseh ar when i can't finish my food while Su Teck n Esther's plate so kilat oredi... anyway they really eat a lot here. dat's y ppl get fat so easily during winter. haha. will join badminton wif e youth soon, but gotta buy new racquet le. haih have to korek my pocket for more cash again!

another full-of-crap blog

Just in case I lose my memory in the future... These are some (MANY) things that happened during National Service in Kem Bumimas Siri 2/2005. From 13 March to 24 May 2005.
caution: do not read unless extremely bored. very very long n "loso". yeah u know me

~arrived at my new home for the next 2 months wif Yvonne. sad, nervous, n excited as well.
~divided into new different "kompeni". a proud member of the BRAVO company. new hostel too: Mata Kucing
~complains that there's too many bumiputeras in my hostel. wants more Chinese frens. in short, grumble grumble grumble
~physical activities start. marching for long hours under e hot sun. complain even more. getting more dark.
~got closer to e gals in my hostel. got along quite well wif Karen, Hua, n Siew Yong. still miss home n food. n mummy
~silang budaya class finishes. kelas kenegaraan starts. my teacher's pretty. haha. the lovely cikgu Mastini
~chat a lot wif Ah Pek in class. advises him to quit smoking n be a good boy. haha.
~saw a cute (ahem) guy in Alpha kompeni. took a picture with e guy (Jimmy). really awkward. haha. started msging wif him
~the whole camp practically knew dat i have a crush on Jimmy. no face ar! i think he knows too. bleh. dun care
~Ah Pek's gang started calling me "da sao". He started getting protective of me. kinda flattered but he's not my type of guy
~kelas kenegaraan ended. cried when i hugged cikgu Mastini. gonna miss her so much.
~a surprise party in my class for Cikgu Mastini. the cake fight began. face n hair all covered with oily icing.
~enjoyed "flying fox". loved rakit n kayaking. started to like physical training. trained hard for marching competition between companies
~many sports competition went on. BRAVO girls rocked! yeah~ *e guys were ok la...*
~had a major fight wif Felicia. went on for at least 2 days. so stupid. then we made up n laughed about it *smiles*
~something went wrong between Camy n I since she found out about Jimmy. stopped talking to her. she tried getting more attention from Jimmy
~Bian Tai became famous for his scream. dun even ask. he stares at people too much.
~dun like e new class, "pembinaan karakter". miss kelas kenegaraan n frens in e class.
~NS ending soon. a strong bond built between all my frens (no matter wat race n religion) n I.
~duet choir presentation wif Siew Yong, "More than words". Chung on guitar. so embarrassed coz of terrible sound system. Ah Pek tried to cheer me up. haha. but all's good.
~(maybe) began to show a lil interest towards Chung. talked a lot to Ck n him. Jimmy n Bian Tai kept bugging me.
~Kenny gave me a few important tips. haha. supports me all the way. such a cool fren
~the funniest moment in history happened. Mok, Ck, Chung, Vincent did a stupid ballet dance in front of 400+ people. Dressed in plastic spaghetti straps n paper-made skirts. laughed histerically when Ck's skirt fell down. almost fell off my chair. stomach muscle ached for laughing too much
~had a new best fren. LUCY! go Lucy. she found a bf. haha.
~I received presents! woohoo. A ring, 2 bracelets, a keychain, an earring. love them.
~We won e marching n obstacle course competition! wao almost pengsan during obstacle but e joy is even incomparable. on cloud nine. guys got no.2 in marching n won obstacle
~BRAVO r champions again!!! lotsa hampers n trophies. took many pictures
~community service started. going home in 2 days. so sad. dun wanna go home. dun wanna leave my frens and kem Bumimas
~took an (ahem) cozy picture wif Chung. he put his hand over my shoulder! haha. me being immature again
~Vincent told (i think) Chung how i felt about him. face reddened.
~sigh sigh. packed my things to head back to Kuching. cried again. cried myself to sleep the night before. saw Lucy crying also.
~last few minutes in Kem Bumimas, my 2nd home. Chung n Ah Pek shook hands wif me for e last time. sigh again. saw Jimmy wiping a tear(?). Bian Tai with his puppy eye look. sheesh make me cry even more
~took last pictures of my beloved home. left on 24 May. not for 1 second regretted National Service. Thanked God for placing me in this special program.
I am truly blessed. and so are thousands of other national service trainees.
Will remember n cherish these 2 months forever. If God allows, might meet with my frens there again. Somewhere, somehow I believe.

Is this the right church for me?

Went to City New Life Church this morning. Gosh, it was so packed. Today was the opening ceremony of their new stage. haha. really cool new stage. found out that the church was actually a majestic theatere, but was bought over and renovated by some pastors. In short, I was just in awe of the exquisiteness n beauty of the church. just breathtaking...dunno how to explain but u have to c it to believe me. haha

Got to know Esther much more better. talks a lot, but thankfully not crap. She's studying law and living in Chan Seng Kai's house now. haha. Apparently her dad knew the mayor really well. Wouldn't be surprised if she'll turn out to be a good politician in a few years time. She even asked me to remember to vote for her. hahaha! hmm...maybe will consider flatting with her next year, since she cooks rili well. hehe

yeah... i survived the first week

wao. time passes rili fast, doesn't it?

1st week of uni has officially ended. today is the most tiring day for me. haha. went into the chemistry laboratory to do some simple experiements today. 1 thing i noticed: totally different from what i've learnt back home. here, all experiments are done individually. reports must be handed in at the last period. and every report counts to my final grade! hah, that's new... so no chance of slacking and finshing report last minute anymore. hmph.

oh yeah. did i mention how funny i look in those long white coats n HUGE goggles??? hahaha.

english class is a wee bit boring. haha. in a sense that it covers really 'kiddies' topics. for the sake of those students from mainland China who don't speak fluent english. but here comes the 1st challenge. an assignment due Monday. hmm. the time to prove myself. muahaha

lalala...

been MIA for a week now. don't ask why. just blame e laptop.

anyway, 2nd day of official uni-day. so how did i find it? 1st thing: really tiring la... class starts at 9am every weekday (tuesdays r worse coz class starts at 8...) n finishes at 5pm. man... sigh. n mind u, it's still very dark at 8 in e morning during winter n gets dark again around 5. haha. so that's my new life here.

some classes are interesting, some are just drop dead boring. statistics teacher is an expert in making people fall asleep. and e only way i can stay awake during snz class is by pinching myself. esp when it's late in e afternoon. many many students r from mainland China, and gosh... are they filthy rich or what?! kinda paiseh owez need to say "hah?" or "pardon me?" coz the chinese they speak sounds rili funny n a lil too precise. haha. nice n sweet ppl though.

snz teacher is plain SCARY. she's just like a female version of prof. SNAPE. really. what kind of teacher frightens her students on e 1st day of class by telling them there's gonna be a report/essay consisting 15% of e final grade which needs to be at least 750 words??? aiks. wanna faint ar. chem n bio r still ok i guess, since it's same as form 5, just in english nia. phew.

right, that's all. cheers!

cold days make me LAZY...

(yesterday's post... had connection problems until just now. hmph!!!)

1st day of orientation this morning. a lil introduction, then (surprisingly) a maths diagnosis (pretty easy though...), after that campus orientation which was led by a few students in e Feb intake. Got to know a Taiwanese n Korean girl, found out that MANY students come from mainland China, and quite a number of Malaysian students too.

so orientation continues tomorrow and e day after, but there's holiday on Monday. Yesh! Wanna grab e opportunity to meet Rebec. So class will start offcially by Tuesday at 9 am. Uni's a huge place, got a bit lost this morning, but fortunately found e Chemistry block. haha! I esp love e library, which is 11 stories high, and it has e nicest view of cant uni from e highest level. just amazing. e teachers here are also very friendly and approachable, which is really good. hehe
hey it actually snowed in a few places further south! ahhhh!!! i'm just ecstatic about snow. hope that can see snow by the next few weeks. hehe. Heard that e UC malaysian club also organises outdoor activities like snowskiing n bungee jumping. can't wait to join it! =P