Just came back from the youth Christmas/new year dinner. Nice party, but weird and funny in some ways. Maybe even embarrassing to some, especially to Max and Richad. haha! But overall, it was kinda fun.
Brought my cuz David to the gathering. I didn't know his christian name until just now. haha! How pathetic am I... Anyway, going to ask him come to church and hopefully to youth gatherings. hehe!
Looking forward to a wonderful new year! Dunno why, but I just believe that this coming 2005 will be so much wonderful and exciting than all the past 17 years of my life. =P
shopping can be my hobby for life
Today has been simply magnificent. So wonderful that I didn't want it to end at all.
This afternoon Jul and I invaded not 1, but 3 shopping malls and went on a crazy shopping spree. We both bought 3 blouses and 1 pants each. haha! At least now I have something to wear to the youth dinner/party tomorrow night, though it's quite sporty, but I like it really much.
Tonight was special as well. Not another shopping spree, but the very last episode of the final season of Sex and the City. It was really touching, and I'm so happy at the way the story ended, how Carrie, Miranda, Samantha, and Charlotte lived 'happily ever after'. It's not a fairytale ending, but one that thouched my heart deeply. Someday, maybe 5 years later, I'd buy the dvd version and watch it all over again. haha!
This layout really is sucky. I can't even put my doodle-board at the sidebar, if not everything will turn out messy. I'll change it asap.
This afternoon Jul and I invaded not 1, but 3 shopping malls and went on a crazy shopping spree. We both bought 3 blouses and 1 pants each. haha! At least now I have something to wear to the youth dinner/party tomorrow night, though it's quite sporty, but I like it really much.
Tonight was special as well. Not another shopping spree, but the very last episode of the final season of Sex and the City. It was really touching, and I'm so happy at the way the story ended, how Carrie, Miranda, Samantha, and Charlotte lived 'happily ever after'. It's not a fairytale ending, but one that thouched my heart deeply. Someday, maybe 5 years later, I'd buy the dvd version and watch it all over again. haha!
This layout really is sucky. I can't even put my doodle-board at the sidebar, if not everything will turn out messy. I'll change it asap.
new layout... not so pretty though
Working as a cashier is a real opportunity to meet all kinds of people. Some are funny, weird and just plain talkative. haha! So far, I've seen Japanese talking in a strange way, pretty Korean ladies, and many 'ang mo's who were shopping at Choice daily. I also overheard some funny conversations and learnt a lot of things about variety in people. It's a priceless experience.
As we all grow up, we realize that we don't really care that much about some silly things anymore. Many people might not know that I was a football fanatic. I used to stay up all night watching my fav football club in action (and who cares if there was school the next day?!) And if the results were good, you will see it in my face. I'd be cheerful all day. If the team lost, I'd be grumpy all day long, sometimes for the whole weekend. I still watch those football matches, but I wonder if I'd still fancy that sport twenty years later. An elderly lady came into the store today asking for an EPL magazine, and I just thought, will I be like that 40 years from now?
I am looking forward to tomorrow. I've basically have it all planned out. haha! Shopping with Jul in the afternoon and practising for the Youth Dinner/party at night. Besides that, Jul and I will be going to school to pick up out testimonials and leaving-school cert. It's been so long since I've stepped into my school... kinda miss it already actually. haha!
Okay, noticed the new layout? It's not my favourite, but just a temporary one, at least for a few weeks. The doodle board is actually at the bottom since it'll mess everything up if I put it at the side. bleh~
As we all grow up, we realize that we don't really care that much about some silly things anymore. Many people might not know that I was a football fanatic. I used to stay up all night watching my fav football club in action (and who cares if there was school the next day?!) And if the results were good, you will see it in my face. I'd be cheerful all day. If the team lost, I'd be grumpy all day long, sometimes for the whole weekend. I still watch those football matches, but I wonder if I'd still fancy that sport twenty years later. An elderly lady came into the store today asking for an EPL magazine, and I just thought, will I be like that 40 years from now?
I am looking forward to tomorrow. I've basically have it all planned out. haha! Shopping with Jul in the afternoon and practising for the Youth Dinner/party at night. Besides that, Jul and I will be going to school to pick up out testimonials and leaving-school cert. It's been so long since I've stepped into my school... kinda miss it already actually. haha!
Okay, noticed the new layout? It's not my favourite, but just a temporary one, at least for a few weeks. The doodle board is actually at the bottom since it'll mess everything up if I put it at the side. bleh~
jolly jolly Christmas
Ho ho ho! Merry Christmas everyone...
It's that time of the year again. I must say, of all the holidays throughout the year, Christmas is definitely my favourite. It's not all about giving and receiving that matters, but what's important is the true meaning why we celebrate Christmas. Too bad there isn't a Christmas dinner this year, but there's gonna be a Christmas party cum dinner by the youths ourselves. haha! Wonder how will that turn out next Wednesday...
Anyway, midnite mass service, as expected, is pretty boring. It was really traditional, and all the youths performing were nervous about our presentation. But overall, I think we did well. I personally have to thank "macho" John for those encouraging words before I went onstage. You'll never know how much a few words might mean to someone else... Poor Melanie had to struggle with her flute as it got "stuck?" just before we started. But thank God everything went smoothly.
Visiting is always a must every year. This morning, went to my aunty's house, and saw my baby nephew Xander... waa he was soooo cute and adorable! haha! I really couldn't stop fondling with his curly hair. All in all, it has been a quiet yet meaningful Christmas so far. There's this one more thing... my Christmas wish: travelling to somewhere exciting. heh. It probably won't come true that soon, though. But I'm still hoping that dad will agree to bring us travelling next year, probably around Chinese New Year.
It's that time of the year again. I must say, of all the holidays throughout the year, Christmas is definitely my favourite. It's not all about giving and receiving that matters, but what's important is the true meaning why we celebrate Christmas. Too bad there isn't a Christmas dinner this year, but there's gonna be a Christmas party cum dinner by the youths ourselves. haha! Wonder how will that turn out next Wednesday...
Anyway, midnite mass service, as expected, is pretty boring. It was really traditional, and all the youths performing were nervous about our presentation. But overall, I think we did well. I personally have to thank "macho" John for those encouraging words before I went onstage. You'll never know how much a few words might mean to someone else... Poor Melanie had to struggle with her flute as it got "stuck?" just before we started. But thank God everything went smoothly.
Visiting is always a must every year. This morning, went to my aunty's house, and saw my baby nephew Xander... waa he was soooo cute and adorable! haha! I really couldn't stop fondling with his curly hair. All in all, it has been a quiet yet meaningful Christmas so far. There's this one more thing... my Christmas wish: travelling to somewhere exciting. heh. It probably won't come true that soon, though. But I'm still hoping that dad will agree to bring us travelling next year, probably around Chinese New Year.
when things begin to change...
There will always be times when things that seem easier to do in the past suddenly become a difficult task now. I've always loved reading story books... those mystery or horror novels (haha!) back when I was in Form 3 or 4. I had the urge to continue that 'hobby' once I've finished SPM... just to relax and improve my vocab. After flipping through a few pages of the Stephen King novel, I just lost the passion for reading anymore. Dunno why... but suddenly I've grown to despise reading such thick books, even if it's only for fun. hah!
I realized that today is the very first time since SPM ended that I actually stayed home all day. haha! It's nice to be totally alone for a while, but I was already bored stiff during the afternoon. heh. All I could think of is finishing my Christmas shopping, which is still not done yet. blek.
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve... woohoo!!! There's this Midnite Mass thingy going on at church, and we'll have the final rehearsal tomorrow morning. It's gonna be fun alrite, but I doubt it when Rev Pat is always there to dampen my holiday mood. haah! Anyway, I tried to strum my dad's guitar just now... and very paiseh to say, I sucked at it. Oh well, I'll just have to learn from the professionals. ;)
I realized that today is the very first time since SPM ended that I actually stayed home all day. haha! It's nice to be totally alone for a while, but I was already bored stiff during the afternoon. heh. All I could think of is finishing my Christmas shopping, which is still not done yet. blek.
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve... woohoo!!! There's this Midnite Mass thingy going on at church, and we'll have the final rehearsal tomorrow morning. It's gonna be fun alrite, but I doubt it when Rev Pat is always there to dampen my holiday mood. haah! Anyway, I tried to strum my dad's guitar just now... and very paiseh to say, I sucked at it. Oh well, I'll just have to learn from the professionals. ;)
help spread e Christmas spirit!
Had to tag along to someone's b-dae dinner just now... aduh, it was soooo boring. Maybe coz I was surrounded by 'old folks' all the time, not forgetting the awkward silences at the table. bleh. I'm glad that it's over now. oh yeah, happy 91st b-dae to Aunty Lim! Can I live until THAT long...? =P
Dunno what happened to me today, but I was sulky throughout the whole day. And the climax was when I was at my mum's shop. Somehow, one of the workers got mad (probably at me) because I forgot to tell her whether the customer wanted normal staple binding or ring binding. Then, even my stupid cousin made jokes about how "blur" I am to the other workers... embarrassing me in front of so many people! I really thought that I deserve much more respect... Anyway, I couldn't take it and asked mum to send me back home. I may have cooled down by now, but how I wish I could say those two words Donald Trump made famous to the workers... "You're Fired!!!" muahahaha. *wicked smirk*
Other reasons why I pulled a long face: mum is always too busy to bring me out to do my Christmas shopping... yeah I know, she's BUSY. And I am still not done with my Christmas shopping! Okay, call me selfish. Hope to find the perfect gifts by tomorrow...
Dunno what happened to me today, but I was sulky throughout the whole day. And the climax was when I was at my mum's shop. Somehow, one of the workers got mad (probably at me) because I forgot to tell her whether the customer wanted normal staple binding or ring binding. Then, even my stupid cousin made jokes about how "blur" I am to the other workers... embarrassing me in front of so many people! I really thought that I deserve much more respect... Anyway, I couldn't take it and asked mum to send me back home. I may have cooled down by now, but how I wish I could say those two words Donald Trump made famous to the workers... "You're Fired!!!" muahahaha. *wicked smirk*
Other reasons why I pulled a long face: mum is always too busy to bring me out to do my Christmas shopping... yeah I know, she's BUSY. And I am still not done with my Christmas shopping! Okay, call me selfish. Hope to find the perfect gifts by tomorrow...
the old has passed away, the new has come
Why do good things in life always have to end so fast? They come surprising you, then in the blink of an eye, leaves just like that. All is left are memories you can't buy anywhere else. Sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter. But whatever the experiences you have gained, they were all there to serve a definite purpose.
The present does not linger. That's why we must always cherish it. Live it. Enjoy it to the fullest. Make full use of it to guarantee a better tomorrow. One of my mottos in life is not to take things for granted. Even the smallest detail or event that happened to you might not seem important now, but you would be surprised at how much it will impact your future, be it near or distant. And those tiniest detail might just turn out to be your most magical moment in life.
Just like your favourite TV show which had just ended, you wish that happier things in life will always continue on. But if that happens, there would be nothing special about life anymore. Everyday will be the same, boring routine. Where's the fun in it?
These moments that you treasure at heart will fade away in time, but will always abide in our hearts forever. That's why I want to make the most of every opportunity. Who cares if I fail to fulfill my target? Like they say, it's wiser to try and risk a 50/50 percent chance of winning, than to not trying at all. One thing's for sure, every effort that you put in will surely bear its fruits, sooner or later.
~ my thoughts, after watching the last episode of Sex and the City, "The Farewell".~
The year 2004 is also ending, giving way to year 2005. A brand new start, a brand new chance. Who knows of all the possibilities that could happen to us...? =P
The present does not linger. That's why we must always cherish it. Live it. Enjoy it to the fullest. Make full use of it to guarantee a better tomorrow. One of my mottos in life is not to take things for granted. Even the smallest detail or event that happened to you might not seem important now, but you would be surprised at how much it will impact your future, be it near or distant. And those tiniest detail might just turn out to be your most magical moment in life.
Just like your favourite TV show which had just ended, you wish that happier things in life will always continue on. But if that happens, there would be nothing special about life anymore. Everyday will be the same, boring routine. Where's the fun in it?
These moments that you treasure at heart will fade away in time, but will always abide in our hearts forever. That's why I want to make the most of every opportunity. Who cares if I fail to fulfill my target? Like they say, it's wiser to try and risk a 50/50 percent chance of winning, than to not trying at all. One thing's for sure, every effort that you put in will surely bear its fruits, sooner or later.
~ my thoughts, after watching the last episode of Sex and the City, "The Farewell".~
The year 2004 is also ending, giving way to year 2005. A brand new start, a brand new chance. Who knows of all the possibilities that could happen to us...? =P
christmas tis de season to praise Him
Kids these days are getting more and more immature. Maybe this only applies to a few people I've met. Sorry to say, "Kids... GROW UP!!!" I know as a senior, it's my duty to help them get along with the other youths. But at times they really annoy me... whatever it is, I'll take it as a test from Him and just be patient. haha!
Went to the "Welcome to my world" concert at main church just now with all the youths and teens. I really like the christmas carols... the choir's voice was really enchanting and beautiful. wow... wonder when will I be able to sing like that.. hehe. Then, as usual, we went to Dalight for late supper. haha! The salad cha kueh was not bad... Eric was busy taking candid pics of everyone the whole time. haha!
Anyway, this week I look forward to spending more time doing serious shopping. hehe!
Went to the "Welcome to my world" concert at main church just now with all the youths and teens. I really like the christmas carols... the choir's voice was really enchanting and beautiful. wow... wonder when will I be able to sing like that.. hehe. Then, as usual, we went to Dalight for late supper. haha! The salad cha kueh was not bad... Eric was busy taking candid pics of everyone the whole time. haha!
Anyway, this week I look forward to spending more time doing serious shopping. hehe!
hello hello new handphone!
Just wanna share my joy with everyone about something historical that happened today. I bought myself a new handphone!!! hehe! It's a brand new NOKIA 6670... just bought it this afternoon with Debbie. Then, we watched "The Incredibles", though have to miss the first few minutes of the movie. haha! Overall, the movie is really nice and funny, I especially like Jack-jack... the CUTE baby turned crazy monster. haha!
where did I go right?
Everything seems to be going on well. Actually, I couldn't wish for a better way to spend my holidays after SPM. But somehow, I feel as if there's something missing. The feeling you get when you've packed for a journey and yet a sixth sense tells you that you've forgotten something important.
I think I know what it is. It's just a guess... and I don't want to be oversensitive. But what else can I do when my emotions take control? sighz... Maybe things will return to normal after I buy my handphone tomorrow.
Speaking of which, dad just pulled out 2000 ringgit from his wallet and threw it on the bed. My first reaction: omigosh... he thinks that I'm selfish. When I think it over: Am I really that selfish, and yet don't realize it? My parents work so hard each day, and they have so much bills to pay. And yet, here I am, sitting comfortably waiting for their money so that I can go out and buy a cool, expensive handphone. Not only that, I've pratically planned my whole week with my friends, thus neglecting my mum who is working full time at her new shop.
I feel terrible. Maybe I should be more sensitive to THEIR feelings instead of mine for once. And realize how much they had sacrificed for me to make me happy. Mum, dad, I know I don't say this much, but I really do appreciate and love you guys!
I think I know what it is. It's just a guess... and I don't want to be oversensitive. But what else can I do when my emotions take control? sighz... Maybe things will return to normal after I buy my handphone tomorrow.
Speaking of which, dad just pulled out 2000 ringgit from his wallet and threw it on the bed. My first reaction: omigosh... he thinks that I'm selfish. When I think it over: Am I really that selfish, and yet don't realize it? My parents work so hard each day, and they have so much bills to pay. And yet, here I am, sitting comfortably waiting for their money so that I can go out and buy a cool, expensive handphone. Not only that, I've pratically planned my whole week with my friends, thus neglecting my mum who is working full time at her new shop.
I feel terrible. Maybe I should be more sensitive to THEIR feelings instead of mine for once. And realize how much they had sacrificed for me to make me happy. Mum, dad, I know I don't say this much, but I really do appreciate and love you guys!
I'm back!!! hehe =P
Haha! I'm finally back at home now, after 6 tiring days of KidsGames and youth camp at Gunung Gading. Though I feel really tired and sore all over, but the experience that I'd gained in this past week is sure worth it.
Just came back from late dinner with SFEC youths at Benson Seafood. Bunny and Debbie are finally back for holidays, so we were really excited to get together like we used to... just to lepak and have fun. haha! Arcade games was really fun just now... stupid bunny keep steering my wheel away, so in the end my car keep crashing into walls... Thought I can get first place, then just because of that got last. haha!
Hmm...about KidsGames 2004. 3 words. Fun. Fun. and Fun! haha... It should be called TeenGames actually. You know why? Because all of us youths play more games than those kids while we were preparing games for them. It was a great opportunity to know many new and cool friends from Brunei... and also have the chance to know new games and play them. Some of the games are dodgeball, tiga kaki, poisonball, and rats n rabbits. Not forgetting to mention "Golden Turkey", where many of us youths got hurt coz the kids were so rough at tackling us. haha! Jung suffered a cut across his shoulder, while Linus was carrying a kid behind his back the whole time he was running around the field. (the objective of the game is actually for the kids to snatch ribbons back from youths, with all youths' hands tied up)
Bottomline, the KidsGames was amazing. There, I found my twin... Jocelyn "JB" Bong. haha! And I also met new frens like funny guy Linus, worship leader Ben, pretty lady Becky, cute Andrew Kit, blond hair guy Jeremiah, Jason, Steven, n of course, the PCK impersonator, Richard. haha! I'll miss them soooo much! Stef took more than 100 hundred photos, so I'll post some up soon.
About the youth camp... the hike was damn exhausting and hard. But we made it. haha! Richard even had the honour of being the only person gotten sucked by a leech. Godric actually helped burn the leech, but ended up burning Richard's hair around his tummy. haha! The hike took like forever, but when you reach the beautiful waterfall, all becomes worth it. We all had the chance to dip ourselves in the cooling stream... and just enjoy the wonders of the waterfall. I didn't want to leave the place... and I think no one else wanted to either. Cooking competition was fun, though my group, the "Chasio" group got last. haha! Who cares anyway? Fun is all that matters. And fellowship when preparing the food.
Okay...enough for tonight. I really have to get my beauty sleep now. tata!
Just came back from late dinner with SFEC youths at Benson Seafood. Bunny and Debbie are finally back for holidays, so we were really excited to get together like we used to... just to lepak and have fun. haha! Arcade games was really fun just now... stupid bunny keep steering my wheel away, so in the end my car keep crashing into walls... Thought I can get first place, then just because of that got last. haha!
Hmm...about KidsGames 2004. 3 words. Fun. Fun. and Fun! haha... It should be called TeenGames actually. You know why? Because all of us youths play more games than those kids while we were preparing games for them. It was a great opportunity to know many new and cool friends from Brunei... and also have the chance to know new games and play them. Some of the games are dodgeball, tiga kaki, poisonball, and rats n rabbits. Not forgetting to mention "Golden Turkey", where many of us youths got hurt coz the kids were so rough at tackling us. haha! Jung suffered a cut across his shoulder, while Linus was carrying a kid behind his back the whole time he was running around the field. (the objective of the game is actually for the kids to snatch ribbons back from youths, with all youths' hands tied up)
Bottomline, the KidsGames was amazing. There, I found my twin... Jocelyn "JB" Bong. haha! And I also met new frens like funny guy Linus, worship leader Ben, pretty lady Becky, cute Andrew Kit, blond hair guy Jeremiah, Jason, Steven, n of course, the PCK impersonator, Richard. haha! I'll miss them soooo much! Stef took more than 100 hundred photos, so I'll post some up soon.
About the youth camp... the hike was damn exhausting and hard. But we made it. haha! Richard even had the honour of being the only person gotten sucked by a leech. Godric actually helped burn the leech, but ended up burning Richard's hair around his tummy. haha! The hike took like forever, but when you reach the beautiful waterfall, all becomes worth it. We all had the chance to dip ourselves in the cooling stream... and just enjoy the wonders of the waterfall. I didn't want to leave the place... and I think no one else wanted to either. Cooking competition was fun, though my group, the "Chasio" group got last. haha! Who cares anyway? Fun is all that matters. And fellowship when preparing the food.
Okay...enough for tonight. I really have to get my beauty sleep now. tata!
a time of relaxation and fun
Aiyer...I'm in the same group as Eric de Gorilla in the cooking competition for the youth camp! Die liaw. While discussing about we're gonna cook to impress the judges, he kept talking out of topic... ish, not even serious for one second. Heh, I don't expect to win the competition anyway. haha!
Anyway, Aunty Siew Siew led priase n worship this morning. It was ok, since it was her first time in years leading. Some people complained that the songs were boring because they were being sung really slooow. No comments. haha! I feel sorry for her, she tried her very best, and it was good enough. To have the guts to go up there and lead the whole congregation for more than 30 minutes, that's brave. *Applause*
Derrick is back from Aussie, he joined us for meeting just now. But he seems a lil distant. Maybe I'm just being over sensitive... dunno. About the youth camp, I guess almost everyone is not happy that Rev Patrick chose to have his session with us on the afternoon. When Unca Chris asked for our opinions last night, everyone objected and opted for hiking instead. What they said was if what we're gonna do all day long at Gunung Gading is to meditate and study the bible all day, why not just do it in church and save lotsa money? Plus, what's the point of going to Gunung Gading if you don't hike? I'm not fond of studying so much after toiling for months for SPM. No way are they going to cancel treasure hunt or beach activities.
I don't mean that we should forget about praying and studying God's word, but let there be enough time for us to have FUN! Gosh...the mainpurpose of having this camp in the first place is to unwind ourselves from stress, esp from studies. And now Rev Patrick is being strict about almost everything. I just pray that he'd be more linient with us this time... and save all those teachings for another day.
Anyway, Aunty Siew Siew led priase n worship this morning. It was ok, since it was her first time in years leading. Some people complained that the songs were boring because they were being sung really slooow. No comments. haha! I feel sorry for her, she tried her very best, and it was good enough. To have the guts to go up there and lead the whole congregation for more than 30 minutes, that's brave. *Applause*
Derrick is back from Aussie, he joined us for meeting just now. But he seems a lil distant. Maybe I'm just being over sensitive... dunno. About the youth camp, I guess almost everyone is not happy that Rev Patrick chose to have his session with us on the afternoon. When Unca Chris asked for our opinions last night, everyone objected and opted for hiking instead. What they said was if what we're gonna do all day long at Gunung Gading is to meditate and study the bible all day, why not just do it in church and save lotsa money? Plus, what's the point of going to Gunung Gading if you don't hike? I'm not fond of studying so much after toiling for months for SPM. No way are they going to cancel treasure hunt or beach activities.
I don't mean that we should forget about praying and studying God's word, but let there be enough time for us to have FUN! Gosh...the mainpurpose of having this camp in the first place is to unwind ourselves from stress, esp from studies. And now Rev Patrick is being strict about almost everything. I just pray that he'd be more linient with us this time... and save all those teachings for another day.
ecstatic!
I am sooooo happy now. hehe.
Just came back from bbq party from Unca Chris' house. With p-cube there, there's never a second without a laughter. Throughout the party I was holding my tummy, laughing like a hysterical person. haha!
We played Dragon Head n Tails, ABC game thingy, and "Malaysian Idol" mafia twice. haha! I actually won the ABC game and second round of mafia. haha! Guess I'm getting better at the mafia game, having played it so many times already.
P-cube is going back to KL tomorrow... kinda sad about it, but it'd be alright. She even gave me a really nice pair of cross-shaped earrings! thank you... gonna miss u sooo much!!!
Just came back from bbq party from Unca Chris' house. With p-cube there, there's never a second without a laughter. Throughout the party I was holding my tummy, laughing like a hysterical person. haha!
We played Dragon Head n Tails, ABC game thingy, and "Malaysian Idol" mafia twice. haha! I actually won the ABC game and second round of mafia. haha! Guess I'm getting better at the mafia game, having played it so many times already.
P-cube is going back to KL tomorrow... kinda sad about it, but it'd be alright. She even gave me a really nice pair of cross-shaped earrings! thank you... gonna miss u sooo much!!!
it's finally over...or is it just beginning?
Wow. *pinch myself*. SPM is really over now. And it's just another start to a new beginning. A new life.
Biology paper was horrible. Stupid questions were so hard to answer, the questions were not clear enough... bottomline, it sucks. Nevermind, I'll just hope that everyone gets a low average mark so that the minimum marks for an A1 will be lowered. Heh.
Just came back from steamboat dinner with 5S1-ers. I'm really gonna miss all of them... Waa, even Clement is leaving for KL the end of this month! But we promised to get together another time, probably on 22 of December. Gonna miss wearing the blue pinafore... will definitely miss listening to my headmaster speaking during assembly. Haha.
Anyway, tomorrow maybe I'll go back to school to get testimonial and school leaving cert. Then, planning on buying a handphone... mum said she'd prefer that I buy a normal phone and get another better dig camera. Yay!!! But I need the cam this Sat for sure... there's gonna be a farewell party/bbq dinner for Agfa at Unca Chris'. Seems like I'd be stuffing my tummy really full this few weeks... with mostly unhealthy food. hehe!
Biology paper was horrible. Stupid questions were so hard to answer, the questions were not clear enough... bottomline, it sucks. Nevermind, I'll just hope that everyone gets a low average mark so that the minimum marks for an A1 will be lowered. Heh.
Just came back from steamboat dinner with 5S1-ers. I'm really gonna miss all of them... Waa, even Clement is leaving for KL the end of this month! But we promised to get together another time, probably on 22 of December. Gonna miss wearing the blue pinafore... will definitely miss listening to my headmaster speaking during assembly. Haha.
Anyway, tomorrow maybe I'll go back to school to get testimonial and school leaving cert. Then, planning on buying a handphone... mum said she'd prefer that I buy a normal phone and get another better dig camera. Yay!!! But I need the cam this Sat for sure... there's gonna be a farewell party/bbq dinner for Agfa at Unca Chris'. Seems like I'd be stuffing my tummy really full this few weeks... with mostly unhealthy food. hehe!
doo doo doodle :P
Added the doodle board! Isn't it cute?
It's the end of November now, and it's only 2 subjects left for SPM. Woo...I'm really excited that it's almost over soon. I really am lookuing forward to life after SPM and high school. Excited, yet nervous at the same time. The National Service problem is still bugging me... but I hope that they will accept my application letter and put me in first batch. But people tell me that it's already too late to apply now... Still, I don't want to give up...pray that He will cause a miracle to happen!
As usual, I slacked whole day. We had a jamming session during youth meeting just now. Bro. Dexter was kind enough to 'help' us out and give us some comments. Anyway, we practised the song "Running after you" for quite a long time...but it still sounds 'kelam kabut'. haha! Dexter's comments was to practise MORE and coordinate with the leader (Ik Sung) more. Oops. Honestly, we were very busy with our own business and didn't pay much attention to what Ik Sung was saying. But overall, we are getting better. Fortunately... haha!
It's the end of November now, and it's only 2 subjects left for SPM. Woo...I'm really excited that it's almost over soon. I really am lookuing forward to life after SPM and high school. Excited, yet nervous at the same time. The National Service problem is still bugging me... but I hope that they will accept my application letter and put me in first batch. But people tell me that it's already too late to apply now... Still, I don't want to give up...pray that He will cause a miracle to happen!
As usual, I slacked whole day. We had a jamming session during youth meeting just now. Bro. Dexter was kind enough to 'help' us out and give us some comments. Anyway, we practised the song "Running after you" for quite a long time...but it still sounds 'kelam kabut'. haha! Dexter's comments was to practise MORE and coordinate with the leader (Ik Sung) more. Oops. Honestly, we were very busy with our own business and didn't pay much attention to what Ik Sung was saying. But overall, we are getting better. Fortunately... haha!
quit using those lols
I've always ignored those silly and irritating fowarded junk mails. But this is one of a kind. And it's horrifying true, too. Well, at least for me. Umm...except the part of "love at first sight" - it should be "crush at first sight". Oh yeah, this is something out of topic, but I just have to say this. I HATE PEOPLE USING LOL!!! arghhhh. It's so annoying. And pathetic.
Is your birthday day 16 of the month?
>Your Life <
You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dreams come true.
>Your Love <
You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at first sight is not your style.
frustrated...pulling on my hair
Whoa. I am impressed. Lil bunny actually 'refurnished' his boring blog into something interesting. haha. oh ya, with the HELP of a friend. gud job, pal.
Anyway, today is just oh-so-boring. sighz. I tried doing some bio exercises, but I get bored after 30 mins and start turning on the tv. which by the way, looks incredibly tempting. So what should I do? Pull out the tv plug which is so hard to reach coz it's behind the tv? or just simply control myself? why is it so hard to do something you have to do, but so easy to accomplish something you WANT to do?
The headaches keep coming. What is it about now? NS. I called KL a few days ago, and found out that I was not placed in the first batch. Disappointment, anger, and frustration just poured out of me. I could be placed in second or worst, third batch for all I know. Jul, Stef, n Yee Yong is also in the same spot as I am, but it's really no comfort at all.
Mum called my NZ agent the other day, and the agent emailed UC, asking them to issue a confirmation letter to me so I can apply for first batch. But somehow against their stupid policy, they can only issue one if I will be going for the Feb intake. So Josephine (de agent) said that the only way is to ask for a confirmation letter saying I'll study in Feb, but later on change my course to June. Blek. I hate doing this. Worse still, there's no guarantee that the people in KL will put me in 1st batch, since there are thousands of victims like me doing the exact same thing. Come to think about it, the government is either an absolute blur or complete idiots. Heh.
Anyway, today is just oh-so-boring. sighz. I tried doing some bio exercises, but I get bored after 30 mins and start turning on the tv. which by the way, looks incredibly tempting. So what should I do? Pull out the tv plug which is so hard to reach coz it's behind the tv? or just simply control myself? why is it so hard to do something you have to do, but so easy to accomplish something you WANT to do?
The headaches keep coming. What is it about now? NS. I called KL a few days ago, and found out that I was not placed in the first batch. Disappointment, anger, and frustration just poured out of me. I could be placed in second or worst, third batch for all I know. Jul, Stef, n Yee Yong is also in the same spot as I am, but it's really no comfort at all.
Mum called my NZ agent the other day, and the agent emailed UC, asking them to issue a confirmation letter to me so I can apply for first batch. But somehow against their stupid policy, they can only issue one if I will be going for the Feb intake. So Josephine (de agent) said that the only way is to ask for a confirmation letter saying I'll study in Feb, but later on change my course to June. Blek. I hate doing this. Worse still, there's no guarantee that the people in KL will put me in 1st batch, since there are thousands of victims like me doing the exact same thing. Come to think about it, the government is either an absolute blur or complete idiots. Heh.
new year resolution
Finally, I've come up with my New Year resolution for 2005. Ah, another year is slowly passing us by, another new and unexpected year just at one corner, waiting for us to embrace it. So this is it.
I've made up my mind to...
...lose excess fat, esp around waist =P
...learn to play guitar & practise more piano
...learn how to cook edible food
...meet up with old pals (Angela, Clement...where r u guys?!)
...be more independent! ahem
by the grace of God, I am quite confident that I will be able to achieve these targets...
and be proud of myself no matter what I will do, be confident in my actions, and most important of all, be more consistent in reading His word. Amen!
tonite, just to unwind myself, i joined the guys jamming whole nite. haha. we sang to silly christmas carols to be performed during christmas later on. it was really hilarious practising and at the same time, laughing like mad at the [animals'] silly antics. then we went to siang siang for ABC special. too bad the 'ang tau' already finished by then. and silly gorilla kept making funny noises and staring at me de whole time, making me hard to concentrate on my ABC. hmmph!
I've made up my mind to...
...lose excess fat, esp around waist =P
...learn to play guitar & practise more piano
...learn how to cook edible food
...meet up with old pals (Angela, Clement...where r u guys?!)
...be more independent! ahem
by the grace of God, I am quite confident that I will be able to achieve these targets...
and be proud of myself no matter what I will do, be confident in my actions, and most important of all, be more consistent in reading His word. Amen!
tonite, just to unwind myself, i joined the guys jamming whole nite. haha. we sang to silly christmas carols to be performed during christmas later on. it was really hilarious practising and at the same time, laughing like mad at the [animals'] silly antics. then we went to siang siang for ABC special. too bad the 'ang tau' already finished by then. and silly gorilla kept making funny noises and staring at me de whole time, making me hard to concentrate on my ABC. hmmph!
my confessions
Long post. Very boring too.
I've known him for such a long time now. Since we were still babies. I remember us and another girl being best friends in our early years, playing in his house, sometimes even running around with no clothes on. Anyway, as time went on, we have all grown up. We studied in seperate primary, then secondary schools, and slowly grew apart. Change. Yeah, that was what made us so different now. Each one of us with completely different characters.
Now, all 3 of us are 17 years old. Adulthood is just nearby, waiting for us to enfold it. Time, the ultimate enemy has caused many uneventful things to happen. First, the other girl was seperated far from us in her own league. Perhaps it was the course of nature, or simply another part of God's great plan. We exchanged bad words amongst ourselves, though it was not spoken out loud at times. The cold war began long before we even realised it.
A few months ago, a dispute broke out in church. She took the shocking step of attending another church. Betrayal was what some said. Selfishness was also mentioned. I didn't take long to figure out why she really left us. I bet he knew it too. We felt guilty for it, but helpless.
Time has brought him to become a leader in our youth group. He was part of our band, yet found it hard to coordinate with the others. Not many respected him. But we dare not to say it out loud. A friend once said that he had always felt intimidated by other previous leaders who were far more outspoken and talented than he is. Once again, my heart broke out for him. But what am I to do?
I know about his past. I know of his insecurities. I remember vividly how he often lied to hide his inferiorities. Lie after lie, he became immune to it. I just stood by one side, not knowing whether to support my friend or to bring him down. He is a good person who works hard to excel. He wanted so bad to prove himself. Perhaps he has set his expectations too high. In studies and in his social life, he always exaggerated his actions, wanting other people to recognise him as a leader. When people including me was out having fun, he was always busy burrying his head into books. I noticed also that he was always the last to leave tuition classes.
Yet, he doesn't feel complete. He tries so hard but still is not satisfied with his achievements. And now he always looks at me in a way saying, "I may not be better than others, but I will always try my very best to be. You'll see. I'll prove it to you. Someway, someday." And because of that reason, I found my inspiration to reach for the highest. Like they always say, "Shoot for the moon, and if you don't, you'll still land among the stars." (=
I've known him for such a long time now. Since we were still babies. I remember us and another girl being best friends in our early years, playing in his house, sometimes even running around with no clothes on. Anyway, as time went on, we have all grown up. We studied in seperate primary, then secondary schools, and slowly grew apart. Change. Yeah, that was what made us so different now. Each one of us with completely different characters.
Now, all 3 of us are 17 years old. Adulthood is just nearby, waiting for us to enfold it. Time, the ultimate enemy has caused many uneventful things to happen. First, the other girl was seperated far from us in her own league. Perhaps it was the course of nature, or simply another part of God's great plan. We exchanged bad words amongst ourselves, though it was not spoken out loud at times. The cold war began long before we even realised it.
A few months ago, a dispute broke out in church. She took the shocking step of attending another church. Betrayal was what some said. Selfishness was also mentioned. I didn't take long to figure out why she really left us. I bet he knew it too. We felt guilty for it, but helpless.
Time has brought him to become a leader in our youth group. He was part of our band, yet found it hard to coordinate with the others. Not many respected him. But we dare not to say it out loud. A friend once said that he had always felt intimidated by other previous leaders who were far more outspoken and talented than he is. Once again, my heart broke out for him. But what am I to do?
I know about his past. I know of his insecurities. I remember vividly how he often lied to hide his inferiorities. Lie after lie, he became immune to it. I just stood by one side, not knowing whether to support my friend or to bring him down. He is a good person who works hard to excel. He wanted so bad to prove himself. Perhaps he has set his expectations too high. In studies and in his social life, he always exaggerated his actions, wanting other people to recognise him as a leader. When people including me was out having fun, he was always busy burrying his head into books. I noticed also that he was always the last to leave tuition classes.
Yet, he doesn't feel complete. He tries so hard but still is not satisfied with his achievements. And now he always looks at me in a way saying, "I may not be better than others, but I will always try my very best to be. You'll see. I'll prove it to you. Someway, someday." And because of that reason, I found my inspiration to reach for the highest. Like they always say, "Shoot for the moon, and if you don't, you'll still land among the stars." (=
kidsgames...am I up for it?
Went to KidsGames training sessions for the past 2 nights. Dunno what came to me yesterday, but somehow I volunteered to be 1 of the 6 people totally in charge of the games section. Fortunately, Stef and Bernard are with me in the same league. There's 2 other small kids from St. Faith (who looked a bit blur last night...haha), Uncle Kenny (the GameMaster...) and of course, our overall HEAD (tau), Ray Hudson. Hmm...is that his real last name? Reminds me of Kate Hudson. Anyway, we the 'games people' must submit our own choice of games with all the details tonight. I've had 1 in mind, it's the wheelbarrow race. I'll think of the backup plan later on, too lazy to do that now.
Richard (the youth leader from BSB) really looks like Phua Chu Kang! Really really. As in 90% alike. haha. At first, it was just Stef that mentioned it, then everyone started saying that. I wonder if he knows it or not. But Richard is really good at organising stuff, plus he's very funny at times. I noticed something too... Brunei people LOVES to say "basically....basically". Oh gosh, it gets annoying at times.
Richard (the youth leader from BSB) really looks like Phua Chu Kang! Really really. As in 90% alike. haha. At first, it was just Stef that mentioned it, then everyone started saying that. I wonder if he knows it or not. But Richard is really good at organising stuff, plus he's very funny at times. I noticed something too... Brunei people LOVES to say "basically....basically". Oh gosh, it gets annoying at times.
fired up
Arghhh. Just wasted almost 2 hours changing the new layout. But it's worth it. Right? Orange isn't exactly my favourite colour, but the whole theme is vibrant and refreshing.
The (short) holidays has almost ended. But not yet. I wish that it'd end sooner. Staying at home doing nothing when I should be studying makes me feel sorta guilty. Aiks.
So it's good that I'm getting out of the house tonight. Yay, mum let me volunteer in the Youth Mission : KidsGames 2004 at St Thom Cathedral next month. Training sessions are from 17 to 19 of Nov, starting tonight. The activities are gonna we so fun. Plus, there are about 30 youths coming from Brunei to help out. Waaa...maybe there are some cute guys involved too... hehe! Anyway, promise myself that I'll have fun tonight and just enjoy serving God.
The (short) holidays has almost ended. But not yet. I wish that it'd end sooner. Staying at home doing nothing when I should be studying makes me feel sorta guilty. Aiks.
So it's good that I'm getting out of the house tonight. Yay, mum let me volunteer in the Youth Mission : KidsGames 2004 at St Thom Cathedral next month. Training sessions are from 17 to 19 of Nov, starting tonight. The activities are gonna we so fun. Plus, there are about 30 youths coming from Brunei to help out. Waaa...maybe there are some cute guys involved too... hehe! Anyway, promise myself that I'll have fun tonight and just enjoy serving God.
beautiful song
A beautiful song, by Jesse McCartney.
"Beautiful Soul"
[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You beautiful soul, yeah
"Beautiful Soul"
[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You beautiful soul, yeah
looking on the bright side of things
Poor dad. He's having a terrible toothache. Ouch. Pray that he won't have that much fear when he visits the dentist tomorrow. Haha.
I'm surprised coz there are so many people online right now. And many of them are like me, people who are sitting for SPM next week. haha. Seems like I'm not the only one escaping reality.
As we all know, it's that time of the year when everybody is busy with their own business. For kids and school children, it's the best time to watch tv and play video games all day long. The working peeps get to enjoy holidays too...since it's the Raya season and Christmas is just around the corner now. But unfortunately, all Form 5 students across Malaysia are burdened with SPM. While other people are out there celebrating and enjoying so much, we are trapped inside rooms, burrying our heads into books and memorizing stupid facts. All for the sake of getting in to good universities or colleges. Or to some, just for the sake of passing high school and graduate, then find a real job.
Is this what high school is all about? Getting good grades to get accepted into renowned universities? As much as I want to say no to that, I do rely on my pre-SPM results to get accepted into UC. But I'm really thankful that everything's working out fine so far. Nothing to complain. And when you stop complaining, that's when you begin to enjoy doing what you're doing, no matter how heavy the task is. Or will be.
I'm surprised coz there are so many people online right now. And many of them are like me, people who are sitting for SPM next week. haha. Seems like I'm not the only one escaping reality.
As we all know, it's that time of the year when everybody is busy with their own business. For kids and school children, it's the best time to watch tv and play video games all day long. The working peeps get to enjoy holidays too...since it's the Raya season and Christmas is just around the corner now. But unfortunately, all Form 5 students across Malaysia are burdened with SPM. While other people are out there celebrating and enjoying so much, we are trapped inside rooms, burrying our heads into books and memorizing stupid facts. All for the sake of getting in to good universities or colleges. Or to some, just for the sake of passing high school and graduate, then find a real job.
Is this what high school is all about? Getting good grades to get accepted into renowned universities? As much as I want to say no to that, I do rely on my pre-SPM results to get accepted into UC. But I'm really thankful that everything's working out fine so far. Nothing to complain. And when you stop complaining, that's when you begin to enjoy doing what you're doing, no matter how heavy the task is. Or will be.
lazy lazy me
Today is declared the LAZY day by me. Determined to study Chemistry today, my lazy genes took control over my mind and body, thus I am spending my LAZY afternoon lazing in front of the computer. ~crap~
Kinda surprised mr. Bunny messaged me, asking about how I knew Kai En. Muahahaha... He must be surprised too when he found out I was one of her many 'friends'. Little did he know that the princess supplied me with top class info about his ex-crush. Hmm...maybe not ex yet. But who's to know, right?
I want a new layout. Butterfly layout really begining to bug me. Ehh~
Kinda surprised mr. Bunny messaged me, asking about how I knew Kai En. Muahahaha... He must be surprised too when he found out I was one of her many 'friends'. Little did he know that the princess supplied me with top class info about his ex-crush. Hmm...maybe not ex yet. But who's to know, right?
I want a new layout. Butterfly layout really begining to bug me. Ehh~
another day wasted...?
GREAT. Just great. I just spent my whole, precious Saturday afternoon designing crap for mum's new NAME CARD. Stupid name card. I'm not a freaking designer, alright? And she always expects so much from me. Goodness. There. I've said it.
Things don't seem to go on smoothly for my dad, too. He was supposed to go to Santubong resort for his home cell retreat this afternoon. Somehow, a worker at the gas station pumped the wrong type of oil into his Prado. So obviously when diesel mixes with petrol oil, the car stops running. Dad was furious when he got home, but mum, well, acted like she always would. She suggested that dad sue the worker for causing damage to his 'new' car. Sheesh.
Good news for someone, though. Julianna just bought a new handphone. So when Ching heard about it, she 'rushed' to town and searched for one herself, but alas...she couldn't find what she wanted. Haha. Those two are always competing. But in a healthy way, I guess. What about me? People keep asking me when am I going to get a handphone. My dear cousin once said to me, "Huh, I don't know how people with no handphones can LIVE..." And I was just sitting next to her. Ok, enough said.
Crappy, crappy, crapy. I am supposed to study Biology now. Heck, I'll do it tonight then. Mum just invited Gordon, my extremely shy cousin to home cell tonight. Oh man. I don't want to be held responsible if he couldn't fit in with the group. And I want to have my own fun too... Later at the worship practise will be my first time meeting with P-cube after she left for Kajang about 5 months ago. So I really have some catching up to do...hehe.
Things don't seem to go on smoothly for my dad, too. He was supposed to go to Santubong resort for his home cell retreat this afternoon. Somehow, a worker at the gas station pumped the wrong type of oil into his Prado. So obviously when diesel mixes with petrol oil, the car stops running. Dad was furious when he got home, but mum, well, acted like she always would. She suggested that dad sue the worker for causing damage to his 'new' car. Sheesh.
Good news for someone, though. Julianna just bought a new handphone. So when Ching heard about it, she 'rushed' to town and searched for one herself, but alas...she couldn't find what she wanted. Haha. Those two are always competing. But in a healthy way, I guess. What about me? People keep asking me when am I going to get a handphone. My dear cousin once said to me, "Huh, I don't know how people with no handphones can LIVE..." And I was just sitting next to her. Ok, enough said.
Crappy, crappy, crapy. I am supposed to study Biology now. Heck, I'll do it tonight then. Mum just invited Gordon, my extremely shy cousin to home cell tonight. Oh man. I don't want to be held responsible if he couldn't fit in with the group. And I want to have my own fun too... Later at the worship practise will be my first time meeting with P-cube after she left for Kajang about 5 months ago. So I really have some catching up to do...hehe.
not exactly a time to relax
It's finally time for a short holiday after the first phase of SPM. The second phase will resume on 22 Nov, after Raya celebration. That's when the tough subjects will be tested, namely Physics, Chem, and Bio. But I'm definitely glad that 5 subjects are over, and I've only have to sit for the remaining 6 subjects.
Though it's holiday season now, I can barely feel the excitement of it this time. Agfa is back, but I doubt that I would have the time to hang out with her. In short, I feel pathetic. Staying at home all day, studying and studying really has taken its toll on me. haha. After all this, on the afternoon of 3 Dec, I'd look forward to throw all my books, tension, and worries away. But for only a short while. Why? Coz waiting for me after SPM are many events, not boring though - Youth camp, National Service, and getting ready to head overseas for further studies. Yikes.
So basically, there isn't enough time for anyone to rest in this real life. Everything is fast-moving, and those who cannot take it will be left out. haha.
I chatted more to Ron two days ago, and he shared some personal things with me. I was really shocked that he was so open about that topic and blurted out everything to me just like that. So I'm stumped about how I should give him the proper advice to settle his 'problem'. I've tried once, but it seems like he's immune to it. Should I ask other people for 2nd opinion, or not make a big fuss out of this? I understand that almost every teenage guy experiences this problem, though they don't tell people about it, but somehow, I feel like a big sister and want so desperately to help him. Lord, please tell me what should I do...
I've been lazy to blog, so I won't blog as frequently as before. Things change, and so have my priorities.
Though it's holiday season now, I can barely feel the excitement of it this time. Agfa is back, but I doubt that I would have the time to hang out with her. In short, I feel pathetic. Staying at home all day, studying and studying really has taken its toll on me. haha. After all this, on the afternoon of 3 Dec, I'd look forward to throw all my books, tension, and worries away. But for only a short while. Why? Coz waiting for me after SPM are many events, not boring though - Youth camp, National Service, and getting ready to head overseas for further studies. Yikes.
So basically, there isn't enough time for anyone to rest in this real life. Everything is fast-moving, and those who cannot take it will be left out. haha.
I chatted more to Ron two days ago, and he shared some personal things with me. I was really shocked that he was so open about that topic and blurted out everything to me just like that. So I'm stumped about how I should give him the proper advice to settle his 'problem'. I've tried once, but it seems like he's immune to it. Should I ask other people for 2nd opinion, or not make a big fuss out of this? I understand that almost every teenage guy experiences this problem, though they don't tell people about it, but somehow, I feel like a big sister and want so desperately to help him. Lord, please tell me what should I do...
I've been lazy to blog, so I won't blog as frequently as before. Things change, and so have my priorities.
genuine friendship
About half an hour ago, I received a phone call from someone I'd least expected. Carolyn. She called to wish me all the best for SPM. Wow...I was pretty touched that she took the effort to call all the way from KL just to wish me good luck. This shows me that no matter how small a deed might seem, it can do big things to people. So, I really thank her and God for giving me more inspiration to do better in SPM. It's truly like a message sent from above...
cherishing those beautiful memories
Surfed through a friend's blog, and decided to do one of my own 'rEfLEctIOns'. haha. This year has certainly been one of my most interesting years, although next year would be even better (with NS and NZ...no pun intended)...
I miss that moment when...
Time passed very very fast...too fast for you to sit there and dream about life. So what I want to do next year is live my life to the fullest and treasure every second possible. Not saying WHY but instead, WHY NOT? hehe~
I miss that moment when...
- SFEC youth become NOT boring anymore...yay!
- had and still have a silly crush on XXX
- told certain people (you know who you are) about my crush and ran to the bathroom, locked myself up, and laughed until I almost cried
- started out this blog and ditched blurty
- watched Ju-on with Ching...how she grabbed my hand so hard it hurts...how I had the creeps while taking showers for a week after that...and how I laughed (really loud) when everyone else was screaming their heads off
- going to Planetshakers concert... and took pictures with cute guys from Aussie
- my b-dae celebration at school...when my friends chiah me with pizza and made my soooo touched
- got to know about being selected for NS while shopping at KL...and partially ruined my mood
- practising for months for "Shout Your Fame"...and performing during Festival of Praise
- after that, celebrating at Kch Festival for 2 consecutive nites
- laughing at Vyner when he broke his guitar and badminton strings many times
- missed the school bus and ended up chasing it all the way to St. Thom...and getting embarassed later on
- sitting through many co-operative meetings...listening to dear ah Bong making announcements
- church camp at Santubong... sabo-ing Richard and John with cake, icing, flour, and eggs
- getting scold by the guard, who complained that we made too much noise
- cleaning up the stinky mess
- creating nicknames for our (Jess, Kel, and I) crushes, laughed like mad... (the nicknames were Dwraf, Merman, and Pinocchio...haha)
- doing a human wheel-barrow with Vyner at ISCF camp...getting my whole face red like a tomato
- forced to do an 'exotic catwalk' during the camp
- watching Esther doing her kind of exotic catwalk
- Agfa leaving for KL...her crying at the airport
- me crying at the airport
- her and I talking on the phone once a week...talking basically crap
- taking part in co-operative quiz...ended up in second place for the second time...
- going to Sun concert...though it sucked, went to Point 1 for ABC special, taking funny pictures, and went home past midnite
- watching Harry Potter 3, not satisfied with the ending...thinking that I'd be a better director than who-was-it-again?
- getting my hair cut short...really short
- seeing the expression on my friends' faces when they saw my hair
- took off my braces =)
- whole day of playing games at the arcade, trying archering and did gud at it...during outing with SFEC youths
- searching for Jake Gyllenhaal on the net after watching The Day After Tomorrow
- farewell party for Deb...had steamboat dinner... Stef and I blowing up clams...watching Ik Sung eating like a king kong
- Gerald begging for Jul's number...and then mine...
- Kevin confessing about his relationship with Deb... seeing his face get red... seeing his father's expression
- attending the drama workshop, acting as a clown with a 6-foot Englishman...with his girlfriend staring at us
- countless times I stared at the computer screen, wishing his nick will just pop up and we could chat for hours...
- and many more events too beautiful to type out :~)
Time passed very very fast...too fast for you to sit there and dream about life. So what I want to do next year is live my life to the fullest and treasure every second possible. Not saying WHY but instead, WHY NOT? hehe~
SPM...here i come
Yesterday~
The house phone line just went dead. Dead, as in no dialtone at all. Hmm, quite weird. It's like someone cut off the line in those scary movies when you most needed the phone and the serial killer is just behind you. So the time I post this is not the time I wrote this. Ok, enough crap~
So I'm really feeling crappy right now. I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like revising. What is wrong with me anyway? It's SPM tomorrow, for Pete's sake. The world has officially gone topsy-turvy. Sheesh. I've tried it all, singing in the bathroom, going for a walk, to lazing in front of the tv for a few hours watching mtv all day. But still no effect on me. Bleh.
Anyways, mum and I went to the education agent again today, talked more about my future studies. Blah blah. I asked her about staying in Residential Halls, which is more fun and activity-filled. But the price is also much higher than homestay. But hey, it's gonna be entirely uni and hall life. Must be interesting. Plus, I can choose from 4 great halls, not to mention almost all halls come with single bedrooms, DVD and movie room (woah...), study room, personal computer, free phone line, free laundry etc. So it offers everything and much more for about NZ dollar 200++ a week. *gasp* Yeah, a week I said. Converted to M'sian ringgit, that's about 400 bucks a week, over a thousand per month, just for accomodation. Winter clothes cost more then NZ 500. I really do feel pity for my parents.
Not being at school on Monday mornings is very weird. People always say that you won't miss school until you've really stopped going there. No wonder I'm so edgy all day. The whole of my body itch, though not literally. Now I can't even phone Kel or Jess because there's no line!!! Ahhhh...this is so pathetic. What to do now...what to do now.... Boredom is killing me now. Ughhhh. Damn the Telekom people. Stupid idiots.
Today~
Yay...1st day of SPM is already over. Surprisingly, both Chinese papers weren't that hard as I thought it'd be. One of the essays is actually a model esaay I had looked through a loooong time ago. So you know the rest of the story. I did my best, now just have to pray for the examiner to give me an A. haha.
Things get weird during the exam season. Last night, I said my prayer, had my quiet time, and off the lights at around 11.30 pm. After almost 2 hours of turning around, I still couldn't sleep. Sheesh, I was so frustrated then, I was really worried that I'd be groggy or tired and couldn't write the essays. So after that, I went to my parents' room and slept there. Thank God I finally rest all my thoughts and had at least four hours of sleep. There's no test tomorrow, doing revision on Add Mx. Yeah...that's one of my fav papers to sit for, but dunno why.
The house phone line just went dead. Dead, as in no dialtone at all. Hmm, quite weird. It's like someone cut off the line in those scary movies when you most needed the phone and the serial killer is just behind you. So the time I post this is not the time I wrote this. Ok, enough crap~
So I'm really feeling crappy right now. I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like revising. What is wrong with me anyway? It's SPM tomorrow, for Pete's sake. The world has officially gone topsy-turvy. Sheesh. I've tried it all, singing in the bathroom, going for a walk, to lazing in front of the tv for a few hours watching mtv all day. But still no effect on me. Bleh.
Anyways, mum and I went to the education agent again today, talked more about my future studies. Blah blah. I asked her about staying in Residential Halls, which is more fun and activity-filled. But the price is also much higher than homestay. But hey, it's gonna be entirely uni and hall life. Must be interesting. Plus, I can choose from 4 great halls, not to mention almost all halls come with single bedrooms, DVD and movie room (woah...), study room, personal computer, free phone line, free laundry etc. So it offers everything and much more for about NZ dollar 200++ a week. *gasp* Yeah, a week I said. Converted to M'sian ringgit, that's about 400 bucks a week, over a thousand per month, just for accomodation. Winter clothes cost more then NZ 500. I really do feel pity for my parents.
Not being at school on Monday mornings is very weird. People always say that you won't miss school until you've really stopped going there. No wonder I'm so edgy all day. The whole of my body itch, though not literally. Now I can't even phone Kel or Jess because there's no line!!! Ahhhh...this is so pathetic. What to do now...what to do now.... Boredom is killing me now. Ughhhh. Damn the Telekom people. Stupid idiots.
Today~
Yay...1st day of SPM is already over. Surprisingly, both Chinese papers weren't that hard as I thought it'd be. One of the essays is actually a model esaay I had looked through a loooong time ago. So you know the rest of the story. I did my best, now just have to pray for the examiner to give me an A. haha.
Things get weird during the exam season. Last night, I said my prayer, had my quiet time, and off the lights at around 11.30 pm. After almost 2 hours of turning around, I still couldn't sleep. Sheesh, I was so frustrated then, I was really worried that I'd be groggy or tired and couldn't write the essays. So after that, I went to my parents' room and slept there. Thank God I finally rest all my thoughts and had at least four hours of sleep. There's no test tomorrow, doing revision on Add Mx. Yeah...that's one of my fav papers to sit for, but dunno why.
decisions decisions...
I've gone crazy. Well, maybe just temporarily. While watching my favourite Simpsons horror show, suddenly I just got up, switched off the tv (my precious...) and told my mum that I wanted to go for a jog at Stutong Park. And so we jogged and walked for an *astounding* distance of 3 kilometers in less than 1 hour. It was fun and relaxing, in a weird way, pretty nice to just sniff some fresh air (even though there's traffic everywhere), and make myself sweat. Talk about pre-NS training. Hmphh. My target next time is to jog for 5 rounds (1 round = 1 km)... and hope that I won't give up in the middle of it. Blueks.
The sermon by Uncle Dennis was really...how should I put it... precise and very true. Recap: Judgement is not all about punishment. There are rewards too awaiting those who deserves them. And whatever thing you do now, no matter how small you might say it is, is recorded and will be presented on the judgement day. On that very day, there will be no appeals, no more second chances. The decision will be FINAL. And He who is your brother, your comforter, your friend, will also be a judge. So that's about it.
I'm still blur about what to do with further studies next year. Oh sheesh. I thought I had decided on foundation studies in University of Canterbury, but Rebecca had to call all the way from NZ and tell me that if I want to study biological sciences, Uni of Otago will be better. Sucky, isn't it? Now what? And residential halls are not too bad either, but maybe the closing date for enrolment is already over. sigh sigh. Well, maybe I should really just stick to Homestay. Whateva.
The sermon by Uncle Dennis was really...how should I put it... precise and very true. Recap: Judgement is not all about punishment. There are rewards too awaiting those who deserves them. And whatever thing you do now, no matter how small you might say it is, is recorded and will be presented on the judgement day. On that very day, there will be no appeals, no more second chances. The decision will be FINAL. And He who is your brother, your comforter, your friend, will also be a judge. So that's about it.
I'm still blur about what to do with further studies next year. Oh sheesh. I thought I had decided on foundation studies in University of Canterbury, but Rebecca had to call all the way from NZ and tell me that if I want to study biological sciences, Uni of Otago will be better. Sucky, isn't it? Now what? And residential halls are not too bad either, but maybe the closing date for enrolment is already over. sigh sigh. Well, maybe I should really just stick to Homestay. Whateva.
the unexpected happens yet again
Prize-giving day, as usual each year, is equally boring. What to do when you have a bald and short-sighted guy for a headmaster?
On Friday night, Jul told me that Ying was not going to receive either of the 3 outstanding students award. Shocking, really shocking. For the past 5 years, Ying has made herself one of the most popular girls in school. She was practically involved in everything - prefect, PBSM, school mag editor, debate, competitions etc. Everyone thought that she was deifinitely going to be the one to take home the coveted trophy/prize. But alas...she got none in the end. Not even the Pelajar Cemerlang or Pelajar Contoh award. Btw, Jou got the Pelajar Contoh award while Kia Miang got the Pelajar Cemerlang award. I think Ying was furious when she heard the news. Sure, who wouldn't be? Jou was even shocked when her name was announced. She didn't want to lose her friendship with Ying just because of some silly award, and got some advice all the way from UK - Sharon.
Yesterday morning, she looked quite uneasy too... blurted everything out when we reached school. I really pity her though, she's stuck in between, not knowing what to do... But in the end, everything went well, I guess... Ying said that she knew from the beginning this was going to happen since many teachers disliked her. Rumours said that teachers think that her behaviour is 'terrible'. What the --- ?!! Gosh, they are all just threatened by her...Ying was one of those outspoken people who would just say out anything...including bad stuff about some teachers. No wonder they didn't want to give her the award, not to mention 300 ringgit cash. Anyway, Jou promised us she'd chiah the 4 or 5 of us makan soon, probably before I go for NS training. waa...I 'd really miss her. It's funny how I only start to get close to someone who will be leaving for somewhere soon... Last time was Agfa, now Jou... this shucks. bleh ;|
Have the biggest urge to watch a scary movie. The Grudge - English version is out now, can't wait to see it. Too bad it's only 4 days to SPM now. For the sake of Halloween mood, write a dead letter at thedeadletter.com.
On Friday night, Jul told me that Ying was not going to receive either of the 3 outstanding students award. Shocking, really shocking. For the past 5 years, Ying has made herself one of the most popular girls in school. She was practically involved in everything - prefect, PBSM, school mag editor, debate, competitions etc. Everyone thought that she was deifinitely going to be the one to take home the coveted trophy/prize. But alas...she got none in the end. Not even the Pelajar Cemerlang or Pelajar Contoh award. Btw, Jou got the Pelajar Contoh award while Kia Miang got the Pelajar Cemerlang award. I think Ying was furious when she heard the news. Sure, who wouldn't be? Jou was even shocked when her name was announced. She didn't want to lose her friendship with Ying just because of some silly award, and got some advice all the way from UK - Sharon.
Yesterday morning, she looked quite uneasy too... blurted everything out when we reached school. I really pity her though, she's stuck in between, not knowing what to do... But in the end, everything went well, I guess... Ying said that she knew from the beginning this was going to happen since many teachers disliked her. Rumours said that teachers think that her behaviour is 'terrible'. What the --- ?!! Gosh, they are all just threatened by her...Ying was one of those outspoken people who would just say out anything...including bad stuff about some teachers. No wonder they didn't want to give her the award, not to mention 300 ringgit cash. Anyway, Jou promised us she'd chiah the 4 or 5 of us makan soon, probably before I go for NS training. waa...I 'd really miss her. It's funny how I only start to get close to someone who will be leaving for somewhere soon... Last time was Agfa, now Jou... this shucks. bleh ;|
Have the biggest urge to watch a scary movie. The Grudge - English version is out now, can't wait to see it. Too bad it's only 4 days to SPM now. For the sake of Halloween mood, write a dead letter at thedeadletter.com.
graduation day
5 years of high school has finally come to an end. Today is the last formal day of school, and everyone in my class partied together, for the last time as students. It really was a celebration. A few girls went out with our Biology teacher, Pn Lesmy, (who also celebrates her birthday today!) to Pizza Hut and ordered 7 pizzas. So we had a great feast of pizzas and laughter during class.
It was really fun...but I could tell that everyone felt sad that we are not going to see each other wearing those silly uniforms, gossiping about teachers, and spending time in class as students anymore. Ying brought up about our Form 2 year when we were best friends and did many funny and silly things, and somehow I got over emotional and cried. Gosh, how humiliating... Anyway, Yee Shien brought her digital cam over and we took many group photos. After crapping and just making fun of each other, we wished each other good luck and goodbyes...
Tomorrow is prize-giving day, and also the last day at school before SPM. No matter what people say, I'll always think that high school years are the best times of our lives... That's when you learn, make mistakes, learn from mistakes, and finally become a mature person. Scary, truly scary. One thing I know for sure, I'll cherish those times in school and forever remember my friends and teachers. Sigh...why does this have to end so fast? I don't want to grow up so fast, to go to another foreign country for Foundation Studies next year. Right now, sitting in class listening to a boring teacher babble seems pretty inviting. haha.
I realy hope all of us 5S1-ers will keep in touch and not forget each other when we're all adults and successful in life. haha. I wonder what we'd be in the future... who knows what might happen and who will turn out to be. So many questions...yet so little answers.
Here's a song all graduates know.
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Quote of the week:
"Ahem. Teacher, it means - skirt fly up, see flesh. Get it?"
Abigail trying to explain to my BM tuition teacher, Pn Mary what "zao keng" means.
It was really fun...but I could tell that everyone felt sad that we are not going to see each other wearing those silly uniforms, gossiping about teachers, and spending time in class as students anymore. Ying brought up about our Form 2 year when we were best friends and did many funny and silly things, and somehow I got over emotional and cried. Gosh, how humiliating... Anyway, Yee Shien brought her digital cam over and we took many group photos. After crapping and just making fun of each other, we wished each other good luck and goodbyes...
Tomorrow is prize-giving day, and also the last day at school before SPM. No matter what people say, I'll always think that high school years are the best times of our lives... That's when you learn, make mistakes, learn from mistakes, and finally become a mature person. Scary, truly scary. One thing I know for sure, I'll cherish those times in school and forever remember my friends and teachers. Sigh...why does this have to end so fast? I don't want to grow up so fast, to go to another foreign country for Foundation Studies next year. Right now, sitting in class listening to a boring teacher babble seems pretty inviting. haha.
I realy hope all of us 5S1-ers will keep in touch and not forget each other when we're all adults and successful in life. haha. I wonder what we'd be in the future... who knows what might happen and who will turn out to be. So many questions...yet so little answers.
Here's a song all graduates know.
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Quote of the week:
"Ahem. Teacher, it means - skirt fly up, see flesh. Get it?"
Abigail trying to explain to my BM tuition teacher, Pn Mary what "zao keng" means.
life goes on...whether u like it or not
I've finally made up my mind to further my studies in New Zealand. If all goes well, I'd be joining Rebecca, and hopefully May at either Riccarton High or Burnside High, Christchurch. Hmm...it's very far away from home, and mum and dad seem uncertain to let me go that far, but they know that it's time I learn how to be independant.
Tomorrow mum will bring me to get the enrolment form to fill out and then pass it to Rebec's mum. But there's still another problem. National Service. sighz. It only ends at 6 of March, whereas school term in NZ begins at mid of Feb. Though Rebec says 1st month of school is not important, but I still don't like missing school...and it's worse when you're the "new international student". Now that's scary. Nobody wants to be the new kid, it's just scary. I'll have to make new friends all over again, leave my best friends behind, leave my boring yet comfy hometown behind, leave my silly youth members behind....waaa...I'll really miss those fun times la. But life must go on, no matter what.
Tomorrow mum will bring me to get the enrolment form to fill out and then pass it to Rebec's mum. But there's still another problem. National Service. sighz. It only ends at 6 of March, whereas school term in NZ begins at mid of Feb. Though Rebec says 1st month of school is not important, but I still don't like missing school...and it's worse when you're the "new international student". Now that's scary. Nobody wants to be the new kid, it's just scary. I'll have to make new friends all over again, leave my best friends behind, leave my boring yet comfy hometown behind, leave my silly youth members behind....waaa...I'll really miss those fun times la. But life must go on, no matter what.
why fret so much over an exam?
As SPM draws ever near, the tension in school really begins to show. Today 7 didn't show up for school, including Jul. They think that the school won't bother to take any action against them (as always), but Mr. Bong amde it clear that whoever skips school in this last two weeks will have their testimonials blacklisted in some sort of way. Actually this won't happen at all if the bald headmaster would just give us study leave (like many other schools) and save many the trouble of buying fake sick leave...
Mock exam results are ok gua...except for chinese. blah. I'm just forever sucky in that subject, no matter how hard I study for it. bluekkk... Still not happy that when I asked my chinese teacher to add 1 more mark...just 1 more mark to help me get at least a B, she ended up cutting 2 marks off my paper again...which leaves me with 58 marks only... sheesh. Anyway, I don't really care about what position I'd get in the class already, unlike other exams, dunno why exactly... maybe I'm more matured now??? nahhh..maybe I'm not that keen on competing with other people now. What's the real point of competing? Is it not to prove that you're better then others? Thinking back on 3 or 4 years ago, I still remembered how we practically demanded that the teachers add just 1 more mark to every subject...and even went to the point of arguing 1 hour for 1 stupid question. Those were the days...
I'm really moody these days... and headachy too. But thank God for those relaxing worship songs I bought...really helped soothe me down. There's so many things to study, yet so little time... 11 subjects altogether, how to study all in less than 2 weeks???
Mock exam results are ok gua...except for chinese. blah. I'm just forever sucky in that subject, no matter how hard I study for it. bluekkk... Still not happy that when I asked my chinese teacher to add 1 more mark...just 1 more mark to help me get at least a B, she ended up cutting 2 marks off my paper again...which leaves me with 58 marks only... sheesh. Anyway, I don't really care about what position I'd get in the class already, unlike other exams, dunno why exactly... maybe I'm more matured now??? nahhh..maybe I'm not that keen on competing with other people now. What's the real point of competing? Is it not to prove that you're better then others? Thinking back on 3 or 4 years ago, I still remembered how we practically demanded that the teachers add just 1 more mark to every subject...and even went to the point of arguing 1 hour for 1 stupid question. Those were the days...
I'm really moody these days... and headachy too. But thank God for those relaxing worship songs I bought...really helped soothe me down. There's so many things to study, yet so little time... 11 subjects altogether, how to study all in less than 2 weeks???
don't know why...but still smiling
I don't really know why, but I love the feeling I get after every home cell meeting. Somehow, I feel more inspired and blessed. And since I've missed home cell for quite a long time, coming home from home cell has really made me feel good...not really on the physical side, but mainly emotionally and spiritually. I wonder if anyone feels the same way too.
There's only about 7 youths today, but it gave me a sense of security and comfort. But I'm quite disappointed that there was no sharing time tonight. Nonetheless, despite a few minor errors during worship, I had a great time tonight, including a few good laughs. haha. the Voon family just has that special ability to make people laugh without noticing it...and I really admire that. The only thing thatw ent wrong just now was poor Eric...he had some tummy problems and had to visit the toilet a couple of times...
16 days till SPM. The countdown really scares me. aiks. What should I do during these last 2 weeks plus? Should I just study like mad or take it slow and easy, only focusing on those topics that I'm not sure of? Or should I quite doing exercises like what I've done during the past few days? Hmm... I really don't know what to do... and what can I do to improve certain subjects. Is it already too late, or is there still enough time to salvage another A, esp from Chinese, the subject I hate most?
Quote of the day: "Vy-ner!! What are you doing??!!"
~ Aunty Roselind, flabbergasted. Vyner, poking holes in a banana with a toothpick.
There's only about 7 youths today, but it gave me a sense of security and comfort. But I'm quite disappointed that there was no sharing time tonight. Nonetheless, despite a few minor errors during worship, I had a great time tonight, including a few good laughs. haha. the Voon family just has that special ability to make people laugh without noticing it...and I really admire that. The only thing thatw ent wrong just now was poor Eric...he had some tummy problems and had to visit the toilet a couple of times...
16 days till SPM. The countdown really scares me. aiks. What should I do during these last 2 weeks plus? Should I just study like mad or take it slow and easy, only focusing on those topics that I'm not sure of? Or should I quite doing exercises like what I've done during the past few days? Hmm... I really don't know what to do... and what can I do to improve certain subjects. Is it already too late, or is there still enough time to salvage another A, esp from Chinese, the subject I hate most?
Quote of the day: "Vy-ner!! What are you doing??!!"
~ Aunty Roselind, flabbergasted. Vyner, poking holes in a banana with a toothpick.
spm just round the corner...
It's been a while since I last blogged. I've been studying and doing lotsa exercises. It's only 2 weeks plus till SPM, but surprisingly, I don't feel the stress yet.
Anyway, just bought 2 great cds, 1 is Casting Crowns, the other is the new one by Hillsongs. The songs are just so nice and powerful. Today I followed mum and dad to their new yet opened shop. they discussed about the suitable layout and colour themes etc. It's quite fun too, designing interior spaces. But I'm still not sure whether to choose between interior designing, pharmacy, or chemistry... I've yet to make up my mind, but many of my friends have already decided which uni to go to and what course to take by now. Jou and four guys from my class have already enroled in the same college in Aussie...all of them taking foundation studies. How do I decide???
Finally, I can go to Home Cell tonight. I'm leading worship again...kinda creepy but okay now. The onloy thing's bothering me is when eric starts laughing like a hyena when I start singing. ugh... Anyway, Agfa's coming back soon, about 3 weeks from now. I really miss her...talked to her on the phone for almost 45 mins last night but still miss that silly princess. haha. She's been like an older sister to me these few months, always giving me advices and words of comfort. Honestly, few months ago, I would never even think that I'd be this close to her now. It's funny and awesome to see how things will work out eventually.
Speaking of which, almost all of my Mock SPM results have been given back. I'm really surprised at some of the results..didn't expect to fare that well is History and Biology. But the B in Chinese, well that was expected. Besides from Chinese, I've gotten all As in all subjects, but there's still Chemistry and English papers yet to be given back. But overall, I guess I'm quite confident and happy with my performance this time...hopefully SPM results will be even better.
Anyway, just bought 2 great cds, 1 is Casting Crowns, the other is the new one by Hillsongs. The songs are just so nice and powerful. Today I followed mum and dad to their new yet opened shop. they discussed about the suitable layout and colour themes etc. It's quite fun too, designing interior spaces. But I'm still not sure whether to choose between interior designing, pharmacy, or chemistry... I've yet to make up my mind, but many of my friends have already decided which uni to go to and what course to take by now. Jou and four guys from my class have already enroled in the same college in Aussie...all of them taking foundation studies. How do I decide???
Finally, I can go to Home Cell tonight. I'm leading worship again...kinda creepy but okay now. The onloy thing's bothering me is when eric starts laughing like a hyena when I start singing. ugh... Anyway, Agfa's coming back soon, about 3 weeks from now. I really miss her...talked to her on the phone for almost 45 mins last night but still miss that silly princess. haha. She's been like an older sister to me these few months, always giving me advices and words of comfort. Honestly, few months ago, I would never even think that I'd be this close to her now. It's funny and awesome to see how things will work out eventually.
Speaking of which, almost all of my Mock SPM results have been given back. I'm really surprised at some of the results..didn't expect to fare that well is History and Biology. But the B in Chinese, well that was expected. Besides from Chinese, I've gotten all As in all subjects, but there's still Chemistry and English papers yet to be given back. But overall, I guess I'm quite confident and happy with my performance this time...hopefully SPM results will be even better.
graduation excitement+anxiety
It's now only 20 days till SPM, and 50 days till graduation from high school. oh gosh...time really flies swiftly, especially when you're having fun. Not to say that 5 years of high school years were very fun and exciting, but the experience is really valuable, and many things had happened, things that made me stronger. Yes, I'll really miss those times we gossip behind teachers' backs, or just playing silly games with close friends, joking around with the guys, and just wearing school uniform. I'll miss those little things soon enough.
Graduation. Such a big word. It means breaking out from your comfort zone and start a new unknown life in the world out there. I've been so comfortable spending my last 17 years under the wings of my parents and friends, but now it's almost time to finally begin a new chapter of my life. I'd be lying if I say I'm not afraid. I don't know what the future holds for me. I don't know what kind of person I'd turn out to be 5 years from now. I don't know what course I'm going to take and in which university. So many choices, yet I don't know how to make one decision.
Everyone wants to grow up and be an adult. But the idea of being an adult actually scares me right now. Maybe not an adult yet, but definitely a more independant person... esp if I were to further my studies overseas. It's gonna be a new environment, new people, new experience... whch means I have to start everything over again, from the beginning.
But whatever my future is, I trust that God has a great plan for me. And no matter what my paths are going to lead, He'd surely guide me and pick me up if I fall.
Graduation. Such a big word. It means breaking out from your comfort zone and start a new unknown life in the world out there. I've been so comfortable spending my last 17 years under the wings of my parents and friends, but now it's almost time to finally begin a new chapter of my life. I'd be lying if I say I'm not afraid. I don't know what the future holds for me. I don't know what kind of person I'd turn out to be 5 years from now. I don't know what course I'm going to take and in which university. So many choices, yet I don't know how to make one decision.
Everyone wants to grow up and be an adult. But the idea of being an adult actually scares me right now. Maybe not an adult yet, but definitely a more independant person... esp if I were to further my studies overseas. It's gonna be a new environment, new people, new experience... whch means I have to start everything over again, from the beginning.
But whatever my future is, I trust that God has a great plan for me. And no matter what my paths are going to lead, He'd surely guide me and pick me up if I fall.
weekend before chem test
What happened on Saturday night? Funny thing is, I went to the dinner with mum's friends expecting little, I only went because she asked me to go with her. So it was pretty boring at first...listening to adults talk serious stuff and jokes that I don't understand at all. But later on, I made two new friends...or two new sisters. Haha.
Mum's friends brought her two grandaughters and I sat next to them. Boy, those two rascals are really loud, hyperactive, talkative... But it's nice just being an older sister...and I really missed being with little children so naive and playful as them. haha. Both of them went to the toilet for at least 10 times that night and didn't even pay a single cent when they went in. The place (Topspot) was really crowded and yet they still dared to go to the toilet alone and ran about like nobody's business. Ah...how nice if I can just go back to those carefree days...
Youth meeting was fun today...we played games throughout the whole 'meeting'. Though the games had been played many times before, but we didn't laugh less. And everyone was not afriad to embarass themselves, too. Which made it even harder when I had to follow an action Ik Sung did... (the action: taking off his clothes in a very very sexy, tempting way and then scrubbing himself with soap...dry off with towel and put back on clothes...) Everyone was laughing like mad while I was blushing like mad. The rest is just to embarrassing to write out. The 'Monkey and banana' game was really rough...my thigh muscles hurt till now. haha. But it was fun trying to snatch the banana away from Bernard..and watch other people do the same thing. Ian was really cunning, he managed to win almost everytime...Marina couldn't beat him at all..haha. Both groups were tied in the end, but laughter's all that counted.
"Promise not to tell Nana this, ok?" pause. "I slipped and fell just now on the way to the toilet. My leg hurts. Ouch." Then she snickered.
~ The little girl whispered in my ear... and then went on running, pretending like nothing happened.
Old songs still sound cool. This one has stayed in my head for quite some time now.
Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd once never been
All the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away
So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who'll throw it all away
So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
At least not today
~Oasis - Don't look back in anger (ost-cruel intentions)
Mum's friends brought her two grandaughters and I sat next to them. Boy, those two rascals are really loud, hyperactive, talkative... But it's nice just being an older sister...and I really missed being with little children so naive and playful as them. haha. Both of them went to the toilet for at least 10 times that night and didn't even pay a single cent when they went in. The place (Topspot) was really crowded and yet they still dared to go to the toilet alone and ran about like nobody's business. Ah...how nice if I can just go back to those carefree days...
Youth meeting was fun today...we played games throughout the whole 'meeting'. Though the games had been played many times before, but we didn't laugh less. And everyone was not afriad to embarass themselves, too. Which made it even harder when I had to follow an action Ik Sung did... (the action: taking off his clothes in a very very sexy, tempting way and then scrubbing himself with soap...dry off with towel and put back on clothes...) Everyone was laughing like mad while I was blushing like mad. The rest is just to embarrassing to write out. The 'Monkey and banana' game was really rough...my thigh muscles hurt till now. haha. But it was fun trying to snatch the banana away from Bernard..and watch other people do the same thing. Ian was really cunning, he managed to win almost everytime...Marina couldn't beat him at all..haha. Both groups were tied in the end, but laughter's all that counted.
"Promise not to tell Nana this, ok?" pause. "I slipped and fell just now on the way to the toilet. My leg hurts. Ouch." Then she snickered.
~ The little girl whispered in my ear... and then went on running, pretending like nothing happened.
Old songs still sound cool. This one has stayed in my head for quite some time now.
Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd once never been
All the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away
So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who'll throw it all away
So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
At least not today
~Oasis - Don't look back in anger (ost-cruel intentions)
lovely saturdays
I always love Saturdays. Although there's Chem test on Monday, but I'm not stressing myself out. This morning went shopping with mum to buy a present for her friend. We bought a heart shaped pendant for her, and a pair of gold earrings for each of us. That was really nice of her...haha.
Going out for a special dinner tonight, since there's no home cell - it's been changed to Sunday. Too bad I can't go tomorrow night coz there's test on Monday. waaa... I've missed 3 weeks of home cell including tomorrow...since I didn't know there ws any home cell for the last two weeks. sighz...I'm such a blur*.
PMR is already over. hmm...and SPM mock is not even finished yet. So unfair... There's still around 50 days to go until I can finally relax and enjoy. sigh sigh. I've been listening to a lot of music while studying these few weeks. Hmm...and I still want some more cd albums. I really like autobiography...it's one of those cds that you can sing along to...and it makes me feel good. hehe. Green Day has a new one out, maybe I'll check it out.
This song is really nice. The lyrics are even more meaningful and inspiring...
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly
And when you're down and feel alone,
Just want to run away,
Trust yourself and don't give up,
You know you better than anyone else,
Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of yesterday.
Going out for a special dinner tonight, since there's no home cell - it's been changed to Sunday. Too bad I can't go tomorrow night coz there's test on Monday. waaa... I've missed 3 weeks of home cell including tomorrow...since I didn't know there ws any home cell for the last two weeks. sighz...I'm such a blur*.
PMR is already over. hmm...and SPM mock is not even finished yet. So unfair... There's still around 50 days to go until I can finally relax and enjoy. sigh sigh. I've been listening to a lot of music while studying these few weeks. Hmm...and I still want some more cd albums. I really like autobiography...it's one of those cds that you can sing along to...and it makes me feel good. hehe. Green Day has a new one out, maybe I'll check it out.
This song is really nice. The lyrics are even more meaningful and inspiring...
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly
And when you're down and feel alone,
Just want to run away,
Trust yourself and don't give up,
You know you better than anyone else,
Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of yesterday.
eek
Hmm. It's only 3 weeks left till SPM and yet I'm blogging 3 times a day. Not normal at all. *sigh* What is wrong with me anyway? I really should be studying Chemistry or some other subject. This is so not me. Two years ago, I would be studying right this moment and not be so lazy. How do I cure this terrible disease???
addicted... again
I can't help it. Gosh, I really am addicted now. Here's another hilarious one. Ahem.
"How do I get to handbags?"
"Oh, they're on the lower level, you can go downstairs right over there."
"I'm afraid of down escalators! You need to respect the fact that some people are afraid of down escalators!"
"I'm so sorry Ma'am... I didn't consider that because you took the up escalator to arrive here just now. Er... the elevators are around the corner if you'd prefer that."
"Don't you know that down escalators is how you get to *looks side to side, then whispers* Hell?"
--An elderly woman and a clerk at Macy's.
Chatted with Alex (dear Agfa's friend). Still chatting with him now actually. He's really really blur, man. That's my first impression of him. Got me mixed up with another person...went on babbling for a few minutes. And now he is beginning to irritate me. Haiyz. And I thought he was cool when we chatted through friendster. Hmmph. Ok...I shouldn't be that judgy. One more thing : He types sloooowly. Slow poke.
"How do I get to handbags?"
"Oh, they're on the lower level, you can go downstairs right over there."
"I'm afraid of down escalators! You need to respect the fact that some people are afraid of down escalators!"
"I'm so sorry Ma'am... I didn't consider that because you took the up escalator to arrive here just now. Er... the elevators are around the corner if you'd prefer that."
"Don't you know that down escalators is how you get to *looks side to side, then whispers* Hell?"
--An elderly woman and a clerk at Macy's.
Chatted with Alex (dear Agfa's friend). Still chatting with him now actually. He's really really blur, man. That's my first impression of him. Got me mixed up with another person...went on babbling for a few minutes. And now he is beginning to irritate me. Haiyz. And I thought he was cool when we chatted through friendster. Hmmph. Ok...I shouldn't be that judgy. One more thing : He types sloooowly. Slow poke.
just when you think that you live in a normal world
Ever think that you're weird? Well, a 'genius' gurl here, eve (eve.s.dropper) claims that she has special listening skills. She evesdrops, umm listens to other people's *interesting* conversations and writes it in her blog. Very entertaining, I must say. Here, you'd realize how funny people can actually be. I don't think they even noticed it. Some are funny, some just totally weird. Here are a few entries. Check out the rest of it at in passing.
"She was like, 'Oh, I thought Buddy was lost!' and reaches under the bed."
"Teddy bear?"
"Pet snake."
--Two guys talking at Raleigh's.
"You look nicer."
"Yeah, I don't wear the contacts much."
"No. I mean you look like a nicer person."
--Two guys talking at Thalassa.
"No. No way. Give me an example."
*pause*
"That doesn't even count, I was trying to show Jenna I could drive with my knee."
--A woman talking on a cell phone outside Pegasus Books.
Maybe it's time that we look at our surroundings closer, and not too self-absorbed all the time. Maybe we'll even get to notice some small yet very significant things while doing that. I think I'll try that myself. Who knows what I might find out. *wink*
random thoughts...
Haiyz...stupid com got hanged again and made me lose my entry. grrr...
Anyway, sat for Add Mx papers today. The questions are getting harder and harder...and that 2 1/2 hours was horrible la. Not only I almost forgotten some of the 'rumus', my eyelids felt incredibly heavy this morning, and the wooden stool was damn uncomfortable. sheesh. I had to squirm every 5 mins or so and move my butt around, I wonder if Jordan, who was sitting next to me, noticed that or not. aiks. The school is still so 'kiam siat' in buying better chairs for the comfort of us, poor students. What to do when you study in a lousy school, with lousy teachers and a bald headmaster whose have extreme eye problems. No wonder his visions aren't that far.
Stumbled upon many blogs today...really interesting when you notice how people write stuff. A guy wrote everything and described himself in the third person. But most of them just crapped. Yeah, like me. So what's the real meaning in blogging? To be heard and seen or just for the fun of it? This is actually my fourth blog journal now...am I really that choosy? Hmm...the first one was okay, but too dull. Second made all the free users pay...hmpf! Got really bored with the third one, and I can't even change the htmls and stuff. This is the fourth, so I hope it'll last... at least for another few months. So I guess it'll be abandoned when I'm going for National Service by December then.
I've had so many crushes before...each one different from the other. But every one of them had been really *interesting*. haha. Fun memories. Nice to think back and just dwell on those hysterical moments. sighhhh. Not sure how I feel about my current crush though...it's weird, really weird. Hmm. Nevermind, I'm sure it'll go away some time soon. I still think it's best for us to just reamin friends...don't wanna lose what we've got.
Just some reading material from a random page...
The Perfect Guy:
Anyway, sat for Add Mx papers today. The questions are getting harder and harder...and that 2 1/2 hours was horrible la. Not only I almost forgotten some of the 'rumus', my eyelids felt incredibly heavy this morning, and the wooden stool was damn uncomfortable. sheesh. I had to squirm every 5 mins or so and move my butt around, I wonder if Jordan, who was sitting next to me, noticed that or not. aiks. The school is still so 'kiam siat' in buying better chairs for the comfort of us, poor students. What to do when you study in a lousy school, with lousy teachers and a bald headmaster whose have extreme eye problems. No wonder his visions aren't that far.
Stumbled upon many blogs today...really interesting when you notice how people write stuff. A guy wrote everything and described himself in the third person. But most of them just crapped. Yeah, like me. So what's the real meaning in blogging? To be heard and seen or just for the fun of it? This is actually my fourth blog journal now...am I really that choosy? Hmm...the first one was okay, but too dull. Second made all the free users pay...hmpf! Got really bored with the third one, and I can't even change the htmls and stuff. This is the fourth, so I hope it'll last... at least for another few months. So I guess it'll be abandoned when I'm going for National Service by December then.
I've had so many crushes before...each one different from the other. But every one of them had been really *interesting*. haha. Fun memories. Nice to think back and just dwell on those hysterical moments. sighhhh. Not sure how I feel about my current crush though...it's weird, really weird. Hmm. Nevermind, I'm sure it'll go away some time soon. I still think it's best for us to just reamin friends...don't wanna lose what we've got.
Just some reading material from a random page...
The Perfect Guy:
- The way they always know how to make you smile when you are down
- How they try to secretly smell your hair or your perfume, but you always notice
- How they stick up for you, but still respect your independence
- How they are so wrapped up in everything else, but still have time for you
- The way their arms fit firmly and comfortably around you
- The way they hint that they want to kiss you
- The way their hands always find yours
- How cute they are when they really want something and how they beg for it
- How they never run out of new games to play to hint that they like you
- How they never run out of good jokes. Even if the jokes are bad you appreaciate the effort to make you laugh
- How they never run out of compliments
- How they are funny, but know when to be serious
- The way they are patient when you take forever to get ready, and the look they give you when you finish that makes you feel it was worth every second
- How they react when you hit them and it actually hurts
- The way they smile
- The way they kiss you
- The way they try to hide that one stuffed animal when you come over
- The way they act like Mr. Big
- The way they apologize for acting like Mr. Big
- The way they ask you for a pen in class and you know they have one
- How they are blasting the music when they pick up the phone, and sometimes even blasting 'our' song
- How they turn it off when they notice that you are on the phone
- The look they make that gives you butterflies in your stomach
- The way they hug you on a bad day and the clouds seem to lift
the mystery of umm...crushes
I found this in a friend's (ahem) blog.
Why is it, that whenever you like this person, you just keep on thinking about them every single day, even in your dreams. It's like a non-stop fantasy about them, which keeps on going on and on, and on until you meet them again. Then when you meet them you just don't know what to say, you're speechless, and you just let everything go it's own way. Then after you've seen that person, and you realized that you never did aNYTHING to attract their attention, you start to regret, you start to think what if I don't get to meet them anymore. Ah, love...such a silly thing, don'tyou think? One moment, you're in love, then the next you choose not to, but then you're still in love, and you try so hard not to think about them, but every single waking moment, nothing else matters except for them.
Hmm...very true indeed. One more question: Why do we keep having crushes on the wrong person? Whoever finds out the answer to that question should be given a NOBLE [luv] prize. Ok, I'm going nuts now...thinking of ***
Why is it, that whenever you like this person, you just keep on thinking about them every single day, even in your dreams. It's like a non-stop fantasy about them, which keeps on going on and on, and on until you meet them again. Then when you meet them you just don't know what to say, you're speechless, and you just let everything go it's own way. Then after you've seen that person, and you realized that you never did aNYTHING to attract their attention, you start to regret, you start to think what if I don't get to meet them anymore. Ah, love...such a silly thing, don'tyou think? One moment, you're in love, then the next you choose not to, but then you're still in love, and you try so hard not to think about them, but every single waking moment, nothing else matters except for them.
Hmm...very true indeed. One more question: Why do we keep having crushes on the wrong person? Whoever finds out the answer to that question should be given a NOBLE [luv] prize. Ok, I'm going nuts now...thinking of ***
escape's not the answer
Have you ever felt so excited for something to happen? A drastic change, maybe? But once it gets nearer to that day, you begin to feel nervous and anxious about it. Imagine a panic attack.
That's what's sitting for SPM is all about. Part of me hopes that it will be over anytime soon so that I can fianlly chill out and relax all day long. But another part of me hope that it will not happen that soon. What do I really want then?
But there's no escaping it, of course. Just have to study like mad for this last month (3 weeks plus actually), sit for it in a nother dreadful month, then finally flap my wings and fly away...
Haha. A little dramatic... but what I really want is to do something different after SPM, well, besides National Service that is. Something more meaningful. Is youth camp enough? By the way, the camp date's changed to 9-11 Dec, whatever the reasons.
Still have Add Mx test tomorrow, then EST on Friday and the worst of all worse... Chemistry on Monday. Aiks. Getting an A seems so far away...
That's what's sitting for SPM is all about. Part of me hopes that it will be over anytime soon so that I can fianlly chill out and relax all day long. But another part of me hope that it will not happen that soon. What do I really want then?
But there's no escaping it, of course. Just have to study like mad for this last month (3 weeks plus actually), sit for it in a nother dreadful month, then finally flap my wings and fly away...
Haha. A little dramatic... but what I really want is to do something different after SPM, well, besides National Service that is. Something more meaningful. Is youth camp enough? By the way, the camp date's changed to 9-11 Dec, whatever the reasons.
Still have Add Mx test tomorrow, then EST on Friday and the worst of all worse... Chemistry on Monday. Aiks. Getting an A seems so far away...
exam bluez
My mind has been troubled for the past few months because of a matter. I don't know if I should call it a family matter or a church problem. This problem has affected many people along the way, and I am also helpless in this, well, quite complicated situation.
I came across her journal (if you found this, you know who you are) few days ago and saw an entry which made me sick to the stomach. I felt betrayed and sad for her because of the way she looked at things. I'm not 100 % sure about everything that's going on behind the scenes, but I know is that she doesn't have the right to critisize what other people are doing. It's not that we don't trust you or just want to say bad things about your family, it's just beacuse we want to make sure you're safe from any harm. Don't you understand that? This is what she wrote:
Well, the reason for my parents' decision is not this. It is something far more serious that has happened. No, I wudn't go into the details, but what I can say is that people (church leaders) have been poking their noses into our family's personal business and claimed that we're doing some illegal stuff. They demanded that we give up what we're doing and is trying everything to make my parents do just that. Concerned, that's wad they say; but a concerned person will only give advices and will not force d other party to do what he/she wants. The couple had asked some ppl to investigate into what my parents are doing--if it is legal or not, secretly. And how can you investigate when you don't know much? Dat was how rumours gets on the way..to make things worse, they wud not accept it when ppl investigated and say that it is actually legal.
What has caused this to happen? Is it just plain greed and love of money or just another way to prove that they are always better than us? Or maybe I'm just overreactingm because other people seem to be closing an eye concerning this matter. Why don't they just solve this once and for all... so that things can just go back to the way it was before?! How should we all deal with this? I prayed and prayed over it, but I still don't have any confirmation about it. Worse still, I hate putting up a face in front of her everyday. This just isn't right at all. Well, whatever the real problem is, I'm sure God has a plan, and it's something that we won't understand.
Speaking of plans, I think Lionel and the others are up to something. Something fishy. hmm. Just now when I was about to leave the church, I saw Lionel discussing some things with Uncle Chris. When I went over ot peek, he quickly covered the paper he was scribbling on and said that I cannot see it. hmm hmm hmm. I smell fish. My birthday is already long gone, so what could it be? Nevermind, I shall be ready for it. haha.
Mock exam continues tomorrow with Physics paper. The paper I dread the most, after Chinese. sigh. PMR starts tomorrow too, and the guys look pretty calm about it, except for poor Richard who got high fever a few days ago. Thank God he's okay by now. I don't mean to judge others, but it's like the fourth straight week that Isabella's been absent to church. And Samantha only came today because she's on duty to play keyboard. And everytime I asked Sam why her sis didn't come, she said that Bella "don't wanna come". oh gosh, what is happening? And why does their parents allow this?
I worry too much. sigh. My head is such a mess now. Another week to go... then I can relax. One more week, Jocelyn.
letting go and starting new
something keeps holding me back
grabbing a hold onto my present
everytime I take a step forward
maybe it's a lesson for me
telling me to the right thing
and learn how to finally
let go
~me
grabbing a hold onto my present
everytime I take a step forward
maybe it's a lesson for me
telling me to the right thing
and learn how to finally
let go
~me
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