Don't you think that in these times, it isn't fair to say "I miss so and so" or "I miss the times when..." anymore? Why is it not fair? Once you mention it to someone, that someone will start comparing his or her situation, by adding more "misses" to the already long, draggy list of what we want to see happening but simply could not.
Everyone has one of those long lists of things or people they miss. So have I. But right now, only one of those items will appear in this blog post. =)
I miss being able to just type out just about anything I want to. Few years ago when I first started out this blog, I wanted to be able to speak my mind, to not plan out the way I write things or put pictures just so that it will fit what other people want to see. I wanted to be true to myself, to let this online journal be a personal, intimate, and HONEST record of what I've been through in life, especially when I'm away from home and missing a whole lot more things (and people).
If you're bored enough to read through some of my OLD posts, they may consist of really bad and broken English, but at least they represent my thoughts, my dreams, my fears, and maybe even my crush. Yes, Mr Crush, you're still out there, since I'm being too much of a coward to say this directly to you: Time will tell. It always does.
ANYWAYYY. My posts are now so diluted, mostly with unimportant facts, uninspiring ramblings, and annoying complaints about my life. Sad, but true. I look around at other blogs, not amazed at the famous bloggers out there who earn more than my annual tuition fee per month, but amazed at those who are not afraid to blog straight from their hearts.
Password protected blogs. It's one way of making people stay out of your blog, but what's the meaning in that? Some might say it's more like those little padlocks you find on the cheap "diaries" found in your local stationary shop; I say it's a smart way of getting out of unwanted trouble. Then why am I not password-protecting my blog and THEN start writing what I really want to again?
But then again, why would I do that? Giving up the main purpose of blogging: sharing thoughts with other people, be it those living on the other side of the world (getting comments from them is AWESOME) or those you bad-mouth about in the blog. It comes down to the fine line of balance between risking your ex-bf finding out your blog address AND of experiencing the satisfaction of being true to yourself.
And who knows, I might actually spill some personal beans from time to time, and only the lucky ones might be able to spot them. ;P
across the distance
distance.
why are you here?
you span the oceans
you create pain
you separate
creating longing
in the hearts of many.
time.
why aren't you on my side?
you control emotions
you heal wounds
you create hope
you hold the answers
to questions unanswered.
faith.
i'll hold you dearly
through the distance
through time
i know you're there
keeping me safe
giving me hope
making me believe.
why are you here?
you span the oceans
you create pain
you separate
creating longing
in the hearts of many.
time.
why aren't you on my side?
you control emotions
you heal wounds
you create hope
you hold the answers
to questions unanswered.
faith.
i'll hold you dearly
through the distance
through time
i know you're there
keeping me safe
giving me hope
making me believe.
Captivate me
I've been busy shopping on trademe.co.nz. =)
I lost the handsfree earphone for my phone, so that gave me an excuse to get a new one. My new ones arrived today, and it only costed 10 bucks!
I recently bought an album by Starfield entitled Beauty in the Broken. They're a Canadian Christian rock/alternative band with exceptional songwriting skills, my favourite off the album is the beautiful "Captivate me". It's definitely worth a listen, and $18.00 for such an amazing cd was worth it.
My latest buy from trademe is another cd, this time it's the latest one from Hillsong United-- "All of the above". Didn't notice when it was released until it appeared on trademe! Looking forward for it to arrive at my doorstep in the next few days.
***
This afternoon's Biochem lab stretched until 5.30pm, but it felt more like 100 hours stuck with huge amounts of cultured Echerishia Coli bacteria.
Not even the microbiology lab was spared. There will be E. coli cultured in lab EVERY single week, and who knows how many hundreds or thousands of them got stuck successfully onto my lab coat. Which means that I have to wash my lab coat at least once a week, if not there'll be enough bacteria to take over the whole of Dunedin by next week.
So my lecturer told us that E coli is one of the "friendly" bacteria that actually lives in your gut, and without it, you might not even function properly. But then why are people so afraid of getting infected by a bacteria that is already living inside you, and their number is more than the total of people living on earth?!
It's pretty ironic if you ask me.
I lost the handsfree earphone for my phone, so that gave me an excuse to get a new one. My new ones arrived today, and it only costed 10 bucks!
I recently bought an album by Starfield entitled Beauty in the Broken. They're a Canadian Christian rock/alternative band with exceptional songwriting skills, my favourite off the album is the beautiful "Captivate me". It's definitely worth a listen, and $18.00 for such an amazing cd was worth it.
My latest buy from trademe is another cd, this time it's the latest one from Hillsong United-- "All of the above". Didn't notice when it was released until it appeared on trademe! Looking forward for it to arrive at my doorstep in the next few days.
***
This afternoon's Biochem lab stretched until 5.30pm, but it felt more like 100 hours stuck with huge amounts of cultured Echerishia Coli bacteria.
Not even the microbiology lab was spared. There will be E. coli cultured in lab EVERY single week, and who knows how many hundreds or thousands of them got stuck successfully onto my lab coat. Which means that I have to wash my lab coat at least once a week, if not there'll be enough bacteria to take over the whole of Dunedin by next week.
So my lecturer told us that E coli is one of the "friendly" bacteria that actually lives in your gut, and without it, you might not even function properly. But then why are people so afraid of getting infected by a bacteria that is already living inside you, and their number is more than the total of people living on earth?!
It's pretty ironic if you ask me.
dreadful biochem
Tomorrow is the day I dread most-- Biochemistry lab report presentation. Though it will only be 5% out of the final grade, I have no idea what to say to my fellow classmates, even after the rather unfruitful group meeting yesterday afternoon. Thankfully it is group work, yet somehow the 5 of us have absolutely no idea how to talk about DNA sequencing blah blah boring stuff.
Oh well. We'll see how the others groups go about doing that too. Hopefully we'll be the last group to present so that everyone couldn't be bothered listening to us by then. Hehe.
Weekend, oh weekend. How I look forward to this coming weekend! Firstly, I'm starting work again this Saturday. Not that it's something EXCITING to look forward to, but work is definitely a motivation to get me out of bed on a Saturday morning, and not lose those hours sleeping-in. Also, getting those extra cash is never a bad thing. =)
Easter break-- should I go back up to Christchurch or stay back here to work? Chch means more food, shopping, and much needed holiday; Dnd means more cleaning, sleep, and boredom. Should I go, or should I stay?
Oh well. We'll see how the others groups go about doing that too. Hopefully we'll be the last group to present so that everyone couldn't be bothered listening to us by then. Hehe.
Weekend, oh weekend. How I look forward to this coming weekend! Firstly, I'm starting work again this Saturday. Not that it's something EXCITING to look forward to, but work is definitely a motivation to get me out of bed on a Saturday morning, and not lose those hours sleeping-in. Also, getting those extra cash is never a bad thing. =)
Easter break-- should I go back up to Christchurch or stay back here to work? Chch means more food, shopping, and much needed holiday; Dnd means more cleaning, sleep, and boredom. Should I go, or should I stay?
A scare
The flat got quite a scare this afternoon. The electric/water bill arrived, and the amount for February was an astonishing $800++!!! I'll faint if I convert this to ringgit. So we thought of how we could possibly use that much electricity in a month, and the probability of a mistake by Contact Energy.
After checking the power metre, sure enough, it was misread. They probably had our figures switched with another flat's. Which means, one of our neighbours actually do spend almost 1000 bucks on electric a month. How crazy is that?! Thank goodness after rough calculation, the amount we should pay comes to $200-ish, about $30 per person, which is reasonable enough for the summer.
***
I had a bad mid-week encounter. Heh.
Bad here translates into a girl's worst nightmare which doesn't involve accidentally walking naked down the street. It simply means bumping into your ex-boyfriend.
Who happens to be with another girl.
At uni.
And the girl SEEMS pretty.
I use the word seems because when it happened, I was too preoccupied looking at the nice couple walking my way to notice that the guy was also staring at my direction. Thinking that it was just a coincidence, I stared harder and *gasped* as I remembered how he looked like. It seemed like ages since we last met, so no wonder it took me a few seconds to recognise him. And the girl, which I assume is his next "victim".
Surprisingly, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Simple answer, it's no longer worth feeling bad or sad about. Let bygones be bygones, really and truly.
***
Waszowski had another accident. Sigh. Poor him (my KORG keyboard lah, of course). Canai accidentally moved Waszowski when the output speaker jack was still plugged in. Bummer. So I'm using the other headphone jack for the time back, couldn't be bothered sending him off for repair again and wait for the parts to arrive blah blah.
Then, Jo told me on Friday that church is considering using Waszowski for Sunday mornings in the future. *gasp!* The current Yamaha keyboard is going to be taken away by the owners in the next few weeks, and the church might buy me a carry-case to transport Waszowski to and fro. While the offer seems reasonable and I get to play with a GOOD keyboard at church (finally!), am I willing to take the risk of getting him damaged again? Even if I agree, it is only temporary as they will be getting brand new (hopefully) good instruments (including keyboards) this year.
But still, carrying him around is a bit of a problem since Waszowski weighs almost 20kgs and he is NOT made as a portable keyboard. And the part which I worry the most is setting up and packing him back every week, since he does cost quite a bit to buy and personal damage is NOT under warranty. Oh well, I will definitely give this more thought before I give them definite answers.
By the way, I'll be playing for the first ever time during a Sunday night next week! Will be quite a bit of a challenge since it will be the intercessors' week, and free worship does seem quite daunting to me right now. Oh well, I need more practice!
After checking the power metre, sure enough, it was misread. They probably had our figures switched with another flat's. Which means, one of our neighbours actually do spend almost 1000 bucks on electric a month. How crazy is that?! Thank goodness after rough calculation, the amount we should pay comes to $200-ish, about $30 per person, which is reasonable enough for the summer.
***
I had a bad mid-week encounter. Heh.
Bad here translates into a girl's worst nightmare which doesn't involve accidentally walking naked down the street. It simply means bumping into your ex-boyfriend.
Who happens to be with another girl.
At uni.
And the girl SEEMS pretty.
I use the word seems because when it happened, I was too preoccupied looking at the nice couple walking my way to notice that the guy was also staring at my direction. Thinking that it was just a coincidence, I stared harder and *gasped* as I remembered how he looked like. It seemed like ages since we last met, so no wonder it took me a few seconds to recognise him. And the girl, which I assume is his next "victim".
Surprisingly, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Simple answer, it's no longer worth feeling bad or sad about. Let bygones be bygones, really and truly.
***
Waszowski had another accident. Sigh. Poor him (my KORG keyboard lah, of course). Canai accidentally moved Waszowski when the output speaker jack was still plugged in. Bummer. So I'm using the other headphone jack for the time back, couldn't be bothered sending him off for repair again and wait for the parts to arrive blah blah.
Then, Jo told me on Friday that church is considering using Waszowski for Sunday mornings in the future. *gasp!* The current Yamaha keyboard is going to be taken away by the owners in the next few weeks, and the church might buy me a carry-case to transport Waszowski to and fro. While the offer seems reasonable and I get to play with a GOOD keyboard at church (finally!), am I willing to take the risk of getting him damaged again? Even if I agree, it is only temporary as they will be getting brand new (hopefully) good instruments (including keyboards) this year.
But still, carrying him around is a bit of a problem since Waszowski weighs almost 20kgs and he is NOT made as a portable keyboard. And the part which I worry the most is setting up and packing him back every week, since he does cost quite a bit to buy and personal damage is NOT under warranty. Oh well, I will definitely give this more thought before I give them definite answers.
By the way, I'll be playing for the first ever time during a Sunday night next week! Will be quite a bit of a challenge since it will be the intercessors' week, and free worship does seem quite daunting to me right now. Oh well, I need more practice!
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