My confession

Don't you think that in these times, it isn't fair to say "I miss so and so" or "I miss the times when..." anymore? Why is it not fair? Once you mention it to someone, that someone will start comparing his or her situation, by adding more "misses" to the already long, draggy list of what we want to see happening but simply could not.

Everyone has one of those long lists of things or people they miss. So have I. But right now, only one of those items will appear in this blog post. =)

I miss being able to just type out just about anything I want to. Few years ago when I first started out this blog, I wanted to be able to speak my mind, to not plan out the way I write things or put pictures just so that it will fit what other people want to see. I wanted to be true to myself, to let this online journal be a personal, intimate, and HONEST record of what I've been through in life, especially when I'm away from home and missing a whole lot more things (and people).

If you're bored enough to read through some of my OLD posts, they may consist of really bad and broken English, but at least they represent my thoughts, my dreams, my fears, and maybe even my crush. Yes, Mr Crush, you're still out there, since I'm being too much of a coward to say this directly to you: Time will tell. It always does.

ANYWAYYY. My posts are now so diluted, mostly with unimportant facts, uninspiring ramblings, and annoying complaints about my life. Sad, but true. I look around at other blogs, not amazed at the famous bloggers out there who earn more than my annual tuition fee per month, but amazed at those who are not afraid to blog straight from their hearts.

Password protected blogs. It's one way of making people stay out of your blog, but what's the meaning in that? Some might say it's more like those little padlocks you find on the cheap "diaries" found in your local stationary shop; I say it's a smart way of getting out of unwanted trouble. Then why am I not password-protecting my blog and THEN start writing what I really want to again?

But then again, why would I do that? Giving up the main purpose of blogging: sharing thoughts with other people, be it those living on the other side of the world (getting comments from them is AWESOME) or those you bad-mouth about in the blog. It comes down to the fine line of balance between risking your ex-bf finding out your blog address AND of experiencing the satisfaction of being true to yourself.

And who knows, I might actually spill some personal beans from time to time, and only the lucky ones might be able to spot them. ;P