Letting go

This time, I really am letting go. It's been almost 3 weeks since the break up, and yet only until just now had I really let it go. Thanks to a friend who told me exactly what I wanted and needed to hear. Thanks above all to God for giving me the sign that I asked for whether or not he is worth another try. So I guess the final verdict is in: There's just no use crying over spilt milk anymore.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

Nothing is ever going to change the fact that he changed my live forever. Nor the fact that he will always be my first love, my first mistake. And for that, I am deeply grateful to the Man above for giving me this experience. In life, there will always be regrets, changes and sacrifices. And when those things happen, you know that you've finally grown as a person.

Lyrics from "Goodbye to you" by Michelle Branch.