where did I go right?

Everything seems to be going on well. Actually, I couldn't wish for a better way to spend my holidays after SPM. But somehow, I feel as if there's something missing. The feeling you get when you've packed for a journey and yet a sixth sense tells you that you've forgotten something important.

I think I know what it is. It's just a guess... and I don't want to be oversensitive. But what else can I do when my emotions take control? sighz... Maybe things will return to normal after I buy my handphone tomorrow.

Speaking of which, dad just pulled out 2000 ringgit from his wallet and threw it on the bed. My first reaction: omigosh... he thinks that I'm selfish. When I think it over: Am I really that selfish, and yet don't realize it? My parents work so hard each day, and they have so much bills to pay. And yet, here I am, sitting comfortably waiting for their money so that I can go out and buy a cool, expensive handphone. Not only that, I've pratically planned my whole week with my friends, thus neglecting my mum who is working full time at her new shop.

I feel terrible. Maybe I should be more sensitive to THEIR feelings instead of mine for once. And realize how much they had sacrificed for me to make me happy. Mum, dad, I know I don't say this much, but I really do appreciate and love you guys!

I'm back!!! hehe =P

Haha! I'm finally back at home now, after 6 tiring days of KidsGames and youth camp at Gunung Gading. Though I feel really tired and sore all over, but the experience that I'd gained in this past week is sure worth it.

Just came back from late dinner with SFEC youths at Benson Seafood. Bunny and Debbie are finally back for holidays, so we were really excited to get together like we used to... just to lepak and have fun. haha! Arcade games was really fun just now... stupid bunny keep steering my wheel away, so in the end my car keep crashing into walls... Thought I can get first place, then just because of that got last. haha!

Hmm...about KidsGames 2004. 3 words. Fun. Fun. and Fun! haha... It should be called TeenGames actually. You know why? Because all of us youths play more games than those kids while we were preparing games for them. It was a great opportunity to know many new and cool friends from Brunei... and also have the chance to know new games and play them. Some of the games are dodgeball, tiga kaki, poisonball, and rats n rabbits. Not forgetting to mention "Golden Turkey", where many of us youths got hurt coz the kids were so rough at tackling us. haha! Jung suffered a cut across his shoulder, while Linus was carrying a kid behind his back the whole time he was running around the field. (the objective of the game is actually for the kids to snatch ribbons back from youths, with all youths' hands tied up)

Bottomline, the KidsGames was amazing. There, I found my twin... Jocelyn "JB" Bong. haha! And I also met new frens like funny guy Linus, worship leader Ben, pretty lady Becky, cute Andrew Kit, blond hair guy Jeremiah, Jason, Steven, n of course, the PCK impersonator, Richard. haha! I'll miss them soooo much! Stef took more than 100 hundred photos, so I'll post some up soon.

About the youth camp... the hike was damn exhausting and hard. But we made it. haha! Richard even had the honour of being the only person gotten sucked by a leech. Godric actually helped burn the leech, but ended up burning Richard's hair around his tummy. haha! The hike took like forever, but when you reach the beautiful waterfall, all becomes worth it. We all had the chance to dip ourselves in the cooling stream... and just enjoy the wonders of the waterfall. I didn't want to leave the place... and I think no one else wanted to either. Cooking competition was fun, though my group, the "Chasio" group got last. haha! Who cares anyway? Fun is all that matters. And fellowship when preparing the food.

Okay...enough for tonight. I really have to get my beauty sleep now. tata!

a time of relaxation and fun

Aiyer...I'm in the same group as Eric de Gorilla in the cooking competition for the youth camp! Die liaw. While discussing about we're gonna cook to impress the judges, he kept talking out of topic... ish, not even serious for one second. Heh, I don't expect to win the competition anyway. haha!

Anyway, Aunty Siew Siew led priase n worship this morning. It was ok, since it was her first time in years leading. Some people complained that the songs were boring because they were being sung really slooow. No comments. haha! I feel sorry for her, she tried her very best, and it was good enough. To have the guts to go up there and lead the whole congregation for more than 30 minutes, that's brave. *Applause*

Derrick is back from Aussie, he joined us for meeting just now. But he seems a lil distant. Maybe I'm just being over sensitive... dunno. About the youth camp, I guess almost everyone is not happy that Rev Patrick chose to have his session with us on the afternoon. When Unca Chris asked for our opinions last night, everyone objected and opted for hiking instead. What they said was if what we're gonna do all day long at Gunung Gading is to meditate and study the bible all day, why not just do it in church and save lotsa money? Plus, what's the point of going to Gunung Gading if you don't hike? I'm not fond of studying so much after toiling for months for SPM. No way are they going to cancel treasure hunt or beach activities.

I don't mean that we should forget about praying and studying God's word, but let there be enough time for us to have FUN! Gosh...the mainpurpose of having this camp in the first place is to unwind ourselves from stress, esp from studies. And now Rev Patrick is being strict about almost everything. I just pray that he'd be more linient with us this time... and save all those teachings for another day.

ecstatic!

I am sooooo happy now. hehe.

Just came back from bbq party from Unca Chris' house. With p-cube there, there's never a second without a laughter. Throughout the party I was holding my tummy, laughing like a hysterical person. haha!

We played Dragon Head n Tails, ABC game thingy, and "Malaysian Idol" mafia twice. haha! I actually won the ABC game and second round of mafia. haha! Guess I'm getting better at the mafia game, having played it so many times already.

P-cube is going back to KL tomorrow... kinda sad about it, but it'd be alright. She even gave me a really nice pair of cross-shaped earrings! thank you... gonna miss u sooo much!!!

it's finally over...or is it just beginning?

Wow. *pinch myself*. SPM is really over now. And it's just another start to a new beginning. A new life.

Biology paper was horrible. Stupid questions were so hard to answer, the questions were not clear enough... bottomline, it sucks. Nevermind, I'll just hope that everyone gets a low average mark so that the minimum marks for an A1 will be lowered. Heh.

Just came back from steamboat dinner with 5S1-ers. I'm really gonna miss all of them... Waa, even Clement is leaving for KL the end of this month! But we promised to get together another time, probably on 22 of December. Gonna miss wearing the blue pinafore... will definitely miss listening to my headmaster speaking during assembly. Haha.

Anyway, tomorrow maybe I'll go back to school to get testimonial and school leaving cert. Then, planning on buying a handphone... mum said she'd prefer that I buy a normal phone and get another better dig camera. Yay!!! But I need the cam this Sat for sure... there's gonna be a farewell party/bbq dinner for Agfa at Unca Chris'. Seems like I'd be stuffing my tummy really full this few weeks... with mostly unhealthy food. hehe!