Not cute

Acting cute is so not cute. It's irritating, disturbing, and a complete waste of time.

Sometimes you browse through friendster or one of those social network sites and notice a few profiles with lets say, 1000 friends. That's fine, maybe you are as popular as Paris Hilton. Then, you see the pictures. Ah, the over-photoshopped pictures with big "innocent" eyes, pouted lips, face slanted at 45 degrees, baby expressions, peace/victory signs (or sometimes just weird sign languages covering a part of their faces)... If that's not enough, this girl posted about 50 "profile pictures" of herself. Can someone please tell me the point of doing that?

A few possibilities to why they do that:

• Proving to the world that they are indeed, cute. So what? You get awarded with the "cutest blogosphere girl award" and get random comments from 80-year-old men. Erm. Very satisfying indeed.
• Too much time on their hands. Take out a camera, start "cam-whoring", then spend 5 hours a day in front of the computer using photoshop to create cheesy pics, then post them online. If you're not getting paid to do that, why even bother?!
• Need a boost of self esteem. Girls, even if you're getting comments like "You're so cute! Can I be your friend?", refer back to last part of reason #1. Self esteem comes from within, not from what others think.
  

Ignore the 3 reasons above. I still think people who advertise themselves by posting vain pics and writing oh-so-cute comments are plain WEIRD. They're probably born with the WEIRD gene overly expressed, and with low self esteem as a catalyst, and then BOOOOM!!! The internet is filled with gag-reflex-inducing profiles of "kawaii girls".

They seriously need to hire personal psychiatrists to cure that disease.

Oh, and photoshop (and other similar editing programs should be kept out of reach of girls who refuse to accept the fact that they are not cute at all.

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It's close to 2am and the coffee's just kicking in, so probably most of this post won't make sense. Just wanted to clarify that.

Can't hate you

Maybe it's time to do the I-HATE-YOU list.

Not that I'm still holding grudges against you or wishing I have never met you before. But yeah, you deserve this.


I hated that you have the same name as my favourite singer a few years back.

I hated that you got to be my first.

I hated how you smoked so much and lied to me about it.

I hated how you always take me back into your arms after a fight.

I hated how I failed to have self control whenever I'm near you.

I hated seeing you at uni with some other girl, pitying her yet unable to do anything.

I hated how you could tell me the world is flat and I'd still believe you.

I hated how you could always tell if I'm lying.

I hated how happy you made me in those 2 months, and how I really thought I was loved by you.

I hated how insecure you made me feel after all that, and how I would cry so much everytime I hear a song that reminded me of us.

I hated that you told me I have the sweetest voice you've ever heard, and how I fell for all your sweet talk.

I hated that you would never know that I found out about you cheating on me, and that I would never have the courage to confront you.

I hated how you promised me the future you painted in my mind- a beautiful one.

I hated how much I had to act like nothing is wrong and laugh when all I wanted to do was to cry myself to sleep.

I hate the fact that I would forever remember you as a mistake I should never make in the first place.

Most of all, I hate the fact that as much as I want to hate you, I can't bring myself to do it.

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Normally, my biochem lab group will be the last to leave. Either our experimental results have gone wrong or we just couldn't decide on what to say during our presentation. Yet today, amazingly enough, we were the 1st group to go home! It might sound stupid, but I'm happy that we've finally managed to work together as a group (despite our differences) and had come up with a good plan, ready to present our results to the class next week, and get good grades for the reports. *grins*

Unfortunately, MANV didn't turn out as well as I expected. The test on Tuesday went horrigible for me, I would be happy to just PASS the terms test. Oh well, my mistake for not thinking straight that day. When the answers were discussed, I felt like banging my head against the wall for knowing the calculations and answers, but just didn't thought about them during the exam. =( That means have to work extra hard to get high marks for finals, or else will have to result to getting a low pass for that paper.

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Academic stuff aside, I've set up a new site for Lighthouse connect group, link can be found here. Pictures and messages will be posted up as soon as I have the inspiration to do so, please feel free to comment on it, even if you think there might be a better hosting site other than asia groups. I was thinking of multiply, but hesitated. Should I have chosen multiply instead?

Autumn is here

Summer; the heat it brings for just a temporal, blissful time has come and gone. Taking its place in the cycle of life comes in the form of a refreshing breeze. And through a wonderful biochemistry process, strips away the outer layer of leaves of its camouflage.

As time passes on, the now reddened leaves, is separated from its source of life, and rests on a foreign land. One leave resting on top of another, slowly forming a crimson carpet that stretches as far as an eye can see. Without any support, they now depend fully on each other, and follows willingly wherever the wind blows. They know it does not matter where they will land next, as they are bonded together by an invisible string guiding them in this journey.

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Autumn is lovely, don't you think?

It acts as a middleman between the hot-and-humid and the cold-and-rainy. Sort of like a stage of preparation, to get us ready for the cold blast just ahead. The red leaves serve as a cushion to support us if we ever fall, eases the pain, and helps us get up on our feet again. Without autumn, can there be winter, spring or summer? They are all interdependent, fully trusting on each other that each season will come. For if one season decided to ditch the group, the other seasons would cease to exist, and the world would be thrown into chaos.

Nobody ever says that autumn is their favourite season. The more popular favourites are either summer, spring, or even winter (for the snow-lovers). Though it isn't mine too (spring is), I'm beginning to appreciate this wonderful season more and more each day. I'm looking past the fact that Dunedin autumn translates to rainy, windy, and chilly; but focusing instead on the fact that changes are inevitable, and the only way we can truly grow is to let the changes change us for the better.

"and so it will be, as you are recreating me
summer, autumn, winter, spring"

Nicole Nordeman -- every season

Back to simplicity

New and a far more simple/easy-to-read layout! =)

Hopefully I won't get bored of this one too quickly.

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MANV test (15% of final grade) tomorrow night. I SHOULD be studying now. Yet I'm more excited about the BBQ during home group tomorrow. Something is seriously wrong with me.

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Lately, I get annoyed really easily. Easily here means that I don't even have the patience to study at the lower levels of central library as I can't stand people walking up and down all the time.

So if you're trying to look for me at uni, know that you'll find me at the uppermost floor of central library (at least 5 hours on Mondays and Wednesdays). It's quiet, there's connectivity for my laptop, and did I mention the view is the best you can get? The only annoying thing is that since there are less than 30 seats on that floor, the uni couldn't be bothered including a toilet there. How "convenient". Maybe that's a way of getting us lazy bums to exercise more. Meh.

Another view I get by studying there is a pretty good view of the "celebrity squares". If you don't already know, the squares is the name given to 4 floors/rows of about 10 cubicle-type rooms for a more "private" study area. Last year when I went to the library around 8am, the squares were already filled up, every single student busy typing away on their laptops, most of them having headphones on.


I have no idea why people like studying there; if I were sitting in one the squares, I would feel as if I'm "on display". Nonetheless, I wouldn't mind sitting there once just to know how it feels like, provided that there are still empty spaces by the time I got there.