the unexpected happens yet again

Prize-giving day, as usual each year, is equally boring. What to do when you have a bald and short-sighted guy for a headmaster?

On Friday night, Jul told me that Ying was not going to receive either of the 3 outstanding students award. Shocking, really shocking. For the past 5 years, Ying has made herself one of the most popular girls in school. She was practically involved in everything - prefect, PBSM, school mag editor, debate, competitions etc. Everyone thought that she was deifinitely going to be the one to take home the coveted trophy/prize. But alas...she got none in the end. Not even the Pelajar Cemerlang or Pelajar Contoh award. Btw, Jou got the Pelajar Contoh award while Kia Miang got the Pelajar Cemerlang award. I think Ying was furious when she heard the news. Sure, who wouldn't be? Jou was even shocked when her name was announced. She didn't want to lose her friendship with Ying just because of some silly award, and got some advice all the way from UK - Sharon.

Yesterday morning, she looked quite uneasy too... blurted everything out when we reached school. I really pity her though, she's stuck in between, not knowing what to do... But in the end, everything went well, I guess... Ying said that she knew from the beginning this was going to happen since many teachers disliked her. Rumours said that teachers think that her behaviour is 'terrible'. What the --- ?!! Gosh, they are all just threatened by her...Ying was one of those outspoken people who would just say out anything...including bad stuff about some teachers. No wonder they didn't want to give her the award, not to mention 300 ringgit cash. Anyway, Jou promised us she'd chiah the 4 or 5 of us makan soon, probably before I go for NS training. waa...I 'd really miss her. It's funny how I only start to get close to someone who will be leaving for somewhere soon... Last time was Agfa, now Jou... this shucks. bleh ;|

Have the biggest urge to watch a scary movie. The Grudge - English version is out now, can't wait to see it. Too bad it's only 4 days to SPM now. For the sake of Halloween mood, write a dead letter at thedeadletter.com.

graduation day

5 years of high school has finally come to an end. Today is the last formal day of school, and everyone in my class partied together, for the last time as students. It really was a celebration. A few girls went out with our Biology teacher, Pn Lesmy, (who also celebrates her birthday today!) to Pizza Hut and ordered 7 pizzas. So we had a great feast of pizzas and laughter during class.

It was really fun...but I could tell that everyone felt sad that we are not going to see each other wearing those silly uniforms, gossiping about teachers, and spending time in class as students anymore. Ying brought up about our Form 2 year when we were best friends and did many funny and silly things, and somehow I got over emotional and cried. Gosh, how humiliating... Anyway, Yee Shien brought her digital cam over and we took many group photos. After crapping and just making fun of each other, we wished each other good luck and goodbyes...

Tomorrow is prize-giving day, and also the last day at school before SPM. No matter what people say, I'll always think that high school years are the best times of our lives... That's when you learn, make mistakes, learn from mistakes, and finally become a mature person. Scary, truly scary. One thing I know for sure, I'll cherish those times in school and forever remember my friends and teachers. Sigh...why does this have to end so fast? I don't want to grow up so fast, to go to another foreign country for Foundation Studies next year. Right now, sitting in class listening to a boring teacher babble seems pretty inviting. haha.

I realy hope all of us 5S1-ers will keep in touch and not forget each other when we're all adults and successful in life. haha. I wonder what we'd be in the future... who knows what might happen and who will turn out to be. So many questions...yet so little answers.

Here's a song all graduates know.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Quote of the week:
"Ahem. Teacher, it means - skirt fly up, see flesh. Get it?"
Abigail trying to explain to my BM tuition teacher, Pn Mary what "zao keng" means.

life goes on...whether u like it or not

I've finally made up my mind to further my studies in New Zealand. If all goes well, I'd be joining Rebecca, and hopefully May at either Riccarton High or Burnside High, Christchurch. Hmm...it's very far away from home, and mum and dad seem uncertain to let me go that far, but they know that it's time I learn how to be independant.
Tomorrow mum will bring me to get the enrolment form to fill out and then pass it to Rebec's mum. But there's still another problem. National Service. sighz. It only ends at 6 of March, whereas school term in NZ begins at mid of Feb. Though Rebec says 1st month of school is not important, but I still don't like missing school...and it's worse when you're the "new international student". Now that's scary. Nobody wants to be the new kid, it's just scary. I'll have to make new friends all over again, leave my best friends behind, leave my boring yet comfy hometown behind, leave my silly youth members behind....waaa...I'll really miss those fun times la. But life must go on, no matter what.

why fret so much over an exam?

As SPM draws ever near, the tension in school really begins to show. Today 7 didn't show up for school, including Jul. They think that the school won't bother to take any action against them (as always), but Mr. Bong amde it clear that whoever skips school in this last two weeks will have their testimonials blacklisted in some sort of way. Actually this won't happen at all if the bald headmaster would just give us study leave (like many other schools) and save many the trouble of buying fake sick leave...

Mock exam results are ok gua...except for chinese. blah. I'm just forever sucky in that subject, no matter how hard I study for it. bluekkk... Still not happy that when I asked my chinese teacher to add 1 more mark...just 1 more mark to help me get at least a B, she ended up cutting 2 marks off my paper again...which leaves me with 58 marks only... sheesh. Anyway, I don't really care about what position I'd get in the class already, unlike other exams, dunno why exactly... maybe I'm more matured now??? nahhh..maybe I'm not that keen on competing with other people now. What's the real point of competing? Is it not to prove that you're better then others? Thinking back on 3 or 4 years ago, I still remembered how we practically demanded that the teachers add just 1 more mark to every subject...and even went to the point of arguing 1 hour for 1 stupid question. Those were the days...

I'm really moody these days... and headachy too. But thank God for those relaxing worship songs I bought...really helped soothe me down. There's so many things to study, yet so little time... 11 subjects altogether, how to study all in less than 2 weeks???

don't know why...but still smiling

I don't really know why, but I love the feeling I get after every home cell meeting. Somehow, I feel more inspired and blessed. And since I've missed home cell for quite a long time, coming home from home cell has really made me feel good...not really on the physical side, but mainly emotionally and spiritually. I wonder if anyone feels the same way too.

There's only about 7 youths today, but it gave me a sense of security and comfort. But I'm quite disappointed that there was no sharing time tonight. Nonetheless, despite a few minor errors during worship, I had a great time tonight, including a few good laughs. haha. the Voon family just has that special ability to make people laugh without noticing it...and I really admire that. The only thing thatw ent wrong just now was poor Eric...he had some tummy problems and had to visit the toilet a couple of times...

16 days till SPM. The countdown really scares me. aiks. What should I do during these last 2 weeks plus? Should I just study like mad or take it slow and easy, only focusing on those topics that I'm not sure of? Or should I quite doing exercises like what I've done during the past few days? Hmm... I really don't know what to do... and what can I do to improve certain subjects. Is it already too late, or is there still enough time to salvage another A, esp from Chinese, the subject I hate most?

Quote of the day: "Vy-ner!! What are you doing??!!"
~ Aunty Roselind, flabbergasted. Vyner, poking holes in a banana with a toothpick.