Long post. Very boring too.
I've known him for such a long time now. Since we were still babies. I remember us and another girl being best friends in our early years, playing in his house, sometimes even running around with no clothes on. Anyway, as time went on, we have all grown up. We studied in seperate primary, then secondary schools, and slowly grew apart. Change. Yeah, that was what made us so different now. Each one of us with completely different characters.
Now, all 3 of us are 17 years old. Adulthood is just nearby, waiting for us to enfold it. Time, the ultimate enemy has caused many uneventful things to happen. First, the other girl was seperated far from us in her own league. Perhaps it was the course of nature, or simply another part of God's great plan. We exchanged bad words amongst ourselves, though it was not spoken out loud at times. The cold war began long before we even realised it.
A few months ago, a dispute broke out in church. She took the shocking step of attending another church. Betrayal was what some said. Selfishness was also mentioned. I didn't take long to figure out why she really left us. I bet he knew it too. We felt guilty for it, but helpless.
Time has brought him to become a leader in our youth group. He was part of our band, yet found it hard to coordinate with the others. Not many respected him. But we dare not to say it out loud. A friend once said that he had always felt intimidated by other previous leaders who were far more outspoken and talented than he is. Once again, my heart broke out for him. But what am I to do?
I know about his past. I know of his insecurities. I remember vividly how he often lied to hide his inferiorities. Lie after lie, he became immune to it. I just stood by one side, not knowing whether to support my friend or to bring him down. He is a good person who works hard to excel. He wanted so bad to prove himself. Perhaps he has set his expectations too high. In studies and in his social life, he always exaggerated his actions, wanting other people to recognise him as a leader. When people including me was out having fun, he was always busy burrying his head into books. I noticed also that he was always the last to leave tuition classes.
Yet, he doesn't feel complete. He tries so hard but still is not satisfied with his achievements. And now he always looks at me in a way saying, "I may not be better than others, but I will always try my very best to be. You'll see. I'll prove it to you. Someway, someday." And because of that reason, I found my inspiration to reach for the highest. Like they always say, "Shoot for the moon, and if you don't, you'll still land among the stars." (=
I've known him for such a long time now. Since we were still babies. I remember us and another girl being best friends in our early years, playing in his house, sometimes even running around with no clothes on. Anyway, as time went on, we have all grown up. We studied in seperate primary, then secondary schools, and slowly grew apart. Change. Yeah, that was what made us so different now. Each one of us with completely different characters.
Now, all 3 of us are 17 years old. Adulthood is just nearby, waiting for us to enfold it. Time, the ultimate enemy has caused many uneventful things to happen. First, the other girl was seperated far from us in her own league. Perhaps it was the course of nature, or simply another part of God's great plan. We exchanged bad words amongst ourselves, though it was not spoken out loud at times. The cold war began long before we even realised it.
A few months ago, a dispute broke out in church. She took the shocking step of attending another church. Betrayal was what some said. Selfishness was also mentioned. I didn't take long to figure out why she really left us. I bet he knew it too. We felt guilty for it, but helpless.
Time has brought him to become a leader in our youth group. He was part of our band, yet found it hard to coordinate with the others. Not many respected him. But we dare not to say it out loud. A friend once said that he had always felt intimidated by other previous leaders who were far more outspoken and talented than he is. Once again, my heart broke out for him. But what am I to do?
I know about his past. I know of his insecurities. I remember vividly how he often lied to hide his inferiorities. Lie after lie, he became immune to it. I just stood by one side, not knowing whether to support my friend or to bring him down. He is a good person who works hard to excel. He wanted so bad to prove himself. Perhaps he has set his expectations too high. In studies and in his social life, he always exaggerated his actions, wanting other people to recognise him as a leader. When people including me was out having fun, he was always busy burrying his head into books. I noticed also that he was always the last to leave tuition classes.
Yet, he doesn't feel complete. He tries so hard but still is not satisfied with his achievements. And now he always looks at me in a way saying, "I may not be better than others, but I will always try my very best to be. You'll see. I'll prove it to you. Someway, someday." And because of that reason, I found my inspiration to reach for the highest. Like they always say, "Shoot for the moon, and if you don't, you'll still land among the stars." (=
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