I came across her journal (if you found this, you know who you are) few days ago and saw an entry which made me sick to the stomach. I felt betrayed and sad for her because of the way she looked at things. I'm not 100 % sure about everything that's going on behind the scenes, but I know is that she doesn't have the right to critisize what other people are doing. It's not that we don't trust you or just want to say bad things about your family, it's just beacuse we want to make sure you're safe from any harm. Don't you understand that? This is what she wrote:
Well, the reason for my parents' decision is not this. It is something far more serious that has happened. No, I wudn't go into the details, but what I can say is that people (church leaders) have been poking their noses into our family's personal business and claimed that we're doing some illegal stuff. They demanded that we give up what we're doing and is trying everything to make my parents do just that. Concerned, that's wad they say; but a concerned person will only give advices and will not force d other party to do what he/she wants. The couple had asked some ppl to investigate into what my parents are doing--if it is legal or not, secretly. And how can you investigate when you don't know much? Dat was how rumours gets on the way..to make things worse, they wud not accept it when ppl investigated and say that it is actually legal.
What has caused this to happen? Is it just plain greed and love of money or just another way to prove that they are always better than us? Or maybe I'm just overreactingm because other people seem to be closing an eye concerning this matter. Why don't they just solve this once and for all... so that things can just go back to the way it was before?! How should we all deal with this? I prayed and prayed over it, but I still don't have any confirmation about it. Worse still, I hate putting up a face in front of her everyday. This just isn't right at all. Well, whatever the real problem is, I'm sure God has a plan, and it's something that we won't understand.
Speaking of plans, I think Lionel and the others are up to something. Something fishy. hmm. Just now when I was about to leave the church, I saw Lionel discussing some things with Uncle Chris. When I went over ot peek, he quickly covered the paper he was scribbling on and said that I cannot see it. hmm hmm hmm. I smell fish. My birthday is already long gone, so what could it be? Nevermind, I shall be ready for it. haha.
Mock exam continues tomorrow with Physics paper. The paper I dread the most, after Chinese. sigh. PMR starts tomorrow too, and the guys look pretty calm about it, except for poor Richard who got high fever a few days ago. Thank God he's okay by now. I don't mean to judge others, but it's like the fourth straight week that Isabella's been absent to church. And Samantha only came today because she's on duty to play keyboard. And everytime I asked Sam why her sis didn't come, she said that Bella "don't wanna come". oh gosh, what is happening? And why does their parents allow this?
I worry too much. sigh. My head is such a mess now. Another week to go... then I can relax. One more week, Jocelyn.
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